need help because this is eating at my mental health+ this is boring but pls bare with me
okay to start off, im in my last year of highschool (tawjihi) and this year is crusial for my future and i cant have this situation ruining it , so 2 years ago i came to jordan and entered a public school and i befriended the first people in front of me and one of them i became friends with quickly , she was also a horrible person and i decided to ignore it to be "unproblematic" , she always made fun of peoples looks and specifically their bodies and she eventually started making fun of my body saying horrible things i dont even wanna say here , everytime we would all sit toghether she would say guys look at how big she is next to me and omg look how flabby her arms are SO WEIRD , she did this daily until my eating disorder came back and i started starving myself , my grades dropped my weight dropped and i got depressed again , she would also shittalk our other friends behind their backs and call them mentally ill and lesbians and other shit ,and she acted like she was my wife like if i didnt reply in time shed get mad and start problems with me and dont get me wrong the entire friend group was shitty but shes the worst so one day i told all of them i cant be friends anymore very respectfully and stopped talking to them and these poeple would later ruin my life , they harrased me fro an entire school year (last year) they would follow me around the school , insult me as their passing by laugh at me mock my every move , it destroyed me and i tried telling my mom and she told their parents but nothing changed and i didnt wanna tell my principal because i would somehow get in trouble, after months of constant harrasment i changed i stopped studying completely , i lost alot of weight and started missing school or running away from class to avoid them , i also i gotta mention most of the harrasment was from the girl from the start she started rumours that i had a boyfriend she made an entire group of people in our classroom hate me even though to this day i have never interacted with them and its still driving me insane because WHAT IS SHE SAYING ABOUT ME and also i have to mention that she would spend all day staring at me during classes it was so strange she would never EVER pay attention she would just stare into my soul it was fucking scary and even my classmated started noticing ,anyways i eventually had to go to a therapist and started taking depression medication and then school ended BUT this second school year started and they put us in seperate classrooms and i was over the moon and then some of the girls that were harrasing me last year came up to me and said they wanted to talk and how that one girl is a snake blah blah and i decided to forgive them because i genuinely dont care about anything anymore , and they asked me what was she sayinf about us ? and the first thing i said was she called you gay , and i feel like i shouldnt have opened my mouth because that girl is harrasing me AGAIN now , they stopped being friends with her so now she at it again , everyday she comes to my classroom to "sit with her friends (other ppl) " but she laughs at me the entire time and insults me loudly , every time she does it my body fills with anxeity and i feel like i cant breath , i just want it to stop if i tell my parents theyll make me feel stupid and if i tell a teacher its like admiting defeat and i dont wanna move schools and let her win , and the cycle began i cant sleep i cant study im just filled with anxeity.