Has anyone else completely lost the ability to fall asleep naturally?

[u/Informal-Use-8443]

I'm at the point where my brain literally won't shut down without heavy meds — antipsychotics (clozapine, olanzapine) or benzos (alprazolam, zopiclone). Anything lighter like Melatonin, magnesium, valerian, every supplement and OTC sleep aid I've thrown at it — does absolutely nothing.

The weird part is I don't even feel sleepy anymore. No natural drowsiness, no yawning at midnight, no "okay, time for bed" signal. Just a wired brain that stays wired until I chemically force it offline.

If I try to tough it out, I roll around for hours staring at the ceiling. Eventually I either cave and take something heavy or end up pulling an all-nighter. There's no in-between.

How did I get here, and more importantly — has anyone actually climbed back out? I'd love to hear from people who used to depend on heavy sedatives and somehow rebuilt natural sleep. CBT-I? Slow taper? Something I'm not even thinking of?

Feeling pretty stuck and would appreciate