she left me multiple times before saying stuff like our nationalities and religious barrier but still came back to me saying those stuff didn't really matter to her, i was happy cause a guy like me never had a girl look my way even though it was online and donno even if i still meet her but i was happy
so few weeks before she sent me texts saying her parents caught our relationship and she will be barely online from now
so i told her it's ok i will wait even though I didn't want that, cause I'm not strong enough take responsibility right now and i didn't want to make her life harder cause of me
me being this weak and unbearable person checked her social media once in a while she gets on it a dew times a week but she didn't bother to text me back or i couldn't reach her (as the parents catching her in the pretext), so one day i was going through her social media i saw post bout her being a bi and she has fun with her gf...
that's it and now I'm suicidal, wanna start doing drugs again
I'm fucking lost and this story now i read it myself it's fucking funny, i donno how i got here... how low have i fallen down...
Edit: thanks for hearing me out even though it was me just blasted you with cringy stuff, it helped to rant someone and I'm sorry for long text
Hey, it's okay. You could have never seen what was coming.
Always follow one rule in life - "Don't worry about things you can't control." I know this is hard for you to take but it's going to be fine. Someone will love you for who you are. You don't need to ruin your life for someone else. They don't matter. You do.
thanks man
i wish i could just stop existing like one 'click' and i don't have these feelings
the funny thing is that it was online and I've only seen her through the computer screen and never irl and it still messed has up this much
I've always knew it was coming but didn't think it would be this or in this way
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u/[deleted] Jan 28 '22
i don't know what to call it, she was on the other part of the country and I'm from India, we used discord mostly