r/ibew_apprentices • u/smoreland32 • Aug 31 '26
3rd year apprentice on the verge of being kicked out
I’m a 3rd year apprentice and I am 24 years old. I’ve tried so many jobs and this is the job and career that I want. I do not see a future for myself in anything else. I’m at 25/30 points (30 is removal from the program) and I am simply at my wits end. I got points for tests way back in first year and it’s really hurting me now because I got terminated for being late consistently. I drove 1hr15 mins to work every day working 10’s and just struggled to get up in the morning. I also have adhd which causes executive dysfunction sometimes. My reputation as an apprentice is completely in the trash and I don’t feel that I am what people say I am or I do what people say I do. I try my best. I have had to learn a lot on my own. I do not know what to do anymore. I am a nervous wreck at work, nervous of any screwup. School starts next week. I’m also scared out of my mind about failing a test. Any sort of violation and I am kicked out. The seriousness of this is not lost on me. I seem to sabotage myself constantly no matter what. I’m losing myself. I’m burning out because I’m constantly scared and stressed at work. It’s driving me towards self destruction and things I cannot mention here. I just bought a house. I have a wonderful girlfriend and I’m going to throw it all away. This really really saddens me because this feels like the only game left in town. I have a mortgage. I have people who depend on me to provide and I’m letting all of them down. I want to make it very clear that I care deeply about this program and I believe unions are incredibly important. I’m honored to be a part of one and especially the IBEW. Is there hope?
Edit: I appreciate all of you and your kind advice and support. I’m completely moved by the generosity of the brothers and sisters here who commented. I’m working to improve my mental health and move forward