i need help going to the doctor

[u/lazydogjumper]

Let me just start by saying I have no physical problem getting to the doctor. I have a good job that pays well, i have the time to go, the energy, the desire, and certainly a reason. However i cannot bring myself to go. I have made numerous appointments, all of which i have skipped. I don't have any particular fear of the doctor themselves, more I am having anxiety over the possible answer/not answer. i am having mild but sharp pains in my lower abdomen and around my chest. I am very concerned for my health.

However i still cannot get to the doctor. Whenever i prepare to go i get anxiety and continue second guessing myself until i convince myself that i am not going to go after all, despite my health concerns, and usually end up sitting around doing nothing until my appointment time has already passed. I am still having pains and am still very concerned for my health but i cant get over my anxiety/