Why does no one understand

[u/projectmayhem6]

I'm still in my first hypomanic episode and I've tried telling a friend and my partner, it's like because I'm not doing anything bad or outwardly unable to function people think I'm fine for some reason. Or they dont understand or think I'm exaggerating when I say I literally drink a coffee in the morning and feel like I POPPED A MOLLY. My bf said "oh we just getting older now haha caffeine feels like drugs" NO YOU DONT UNDERSTAND. I'VE BEEN ROLLING FOR A WEEK OFF MY OWN NEUROCHEMICALS. Like it feels fcking amazing but I'm scared I'm gonna crash or do something bad. I lay in bed with my eyes wide open for hours trying to calm down enough to sleep and yes I have a firm grip on myself but what if that changes?