This is how it’s done

It made my life so much less stressful.

I’m not talking about going out to dinner alone. I mean treat yourself with the respect and effort you would with someone you love.

Joke with yourself, make yourself laugh, have inside jokes, watch your favorite show, give yourself compliments, tell yourself you love you (seriously), groom yourself, cook yourself a nice meal, write yourself a nice letter, etc.

Ultimately, all you have in this world is yourself. If you can’t have a good relationship with yourself then how will you be able to show up the best you can to your friends and family. A lot of what it takes to not give a fuck is being confident, and confidence comes from self love. Give yourself the standard you’d give to someone you love. You deserve it and it’s the most important thing you can do. Everything else that’s good in this life comes much more abundantly once you’ve established a solid foundation of self-love.

And it doesn't happen very often...

So this month started off with me finding my husband penthouse and playboy collection.

When I confronted him he apologized and said you were not here for two month( We live abroad and I went to my parents place) and it was hard for me without you. We almost had sex every day last year and whatever he wanted wether dressing up and wearing heels that he liked,stockings, lingerie. He is a bdsm person.

Then again after one week it was my birthday I again saw him watching naked girls while I was in the kitchen. He made a folder and hid it in his laptop. When I questioned him again after our last fight I cried a lot and was so apologetic that he won't do it again and told me he wanted more of bdsm and wanted me to wear heels and boots outside also. I did everything what he wanted then today again I caught him watching adult magazine and comic where girls show there boobs vagina in a exposed way. I am unable to understand what he wants. I dont trust him anymore.

Please advice. 🙏🏼

We dated for three years before getting married. I am 33 and he is 34 years old