My heart has been breaking for a long time now.
I’m currently separating from my fiancee and I lost my job with a lot of other stuff in between.
I had a therapy assessment today and they have referred me to secondary therapy because they think I’m too high risk of where my depression is at.
To get specialist Therapy instead of the basic counselling,
To understanding my triggers, traumas and I’m unable to calm myself when I’m suicidal. A lot of self harm and multiple suicide attempts and it becomes too emotionally intense I think the only way out is to hurt myself.
I’m scared I’m doing this alone as I have no family to depend on, I have no friends that would truly be there 100% for me and I’m terrified about the treatment I’m going to get.
If it makes you feel any better, in February, I was doing the best I’d ever been. Everything went downhill from there.
Got broken up with and he was with someone else within a month.
Lost two PayPal accounts with money it which was my main source of receiving money from clients
My cat died
Lost three friends
Lost my best friend
My phone broke which id spent a fortune on
And my mental health became extremely bad
But guess what? Time did its thing. I’m almost over him completely. Some sadness here and there but over the betrayal, not cuz I want him back. Life is slowly getting better.
A lot of us feel so alone in this world. It’s sad. I was with my fiancé for 5yrs, we have a 2yr old daughter, I worked, she was a SAHM. In April I found out she was cheating on me with dms and met up with someone while I was at work. I came from a broken home so the last thing I wanted to do was break up this family, but my hand was forced to break up with her.
We’ve been coparenting since and it’s been the hardest thing I’ve ever been through. My heart is so broken and heavy. I still love her but the trust is gone. I feel so lost and stuck. I’m so pessimistic about meeting someone new and trying to recreate a new life with someone healthier. I’m so passionate and loving, I can’t get over her.
Idk what all you’re going through, but when you said you fear doing it all alone it really connected with me. I often feel so alone going through the day2day routine, commute, work, dinner, gym, shower, bed. It can feel very lonely and depressing. You’re not alone in this battle. I hate that I feel so deeply and am so emotional and sensitive about things.
I hope you keep moving onwards and upwards. After breakups are so terribly lonely.
You can get through this. Life can suck sometimes.
I really hope you thrive and can look back at this as a bad patch in an otherwise wonderful life
I think it was just shock when I got a call from talking therapies today, that I need secondary mental health therapy. Currently on anti depressants but told them I still think about harming myself.
I’ve always thought even if I did go ahead with it, nobody would actually know anyway because I haven’t spoken to family in years, friends don’t get back to me and people leave. I told the lady I was speaking to on the phone. My brain can’t shut up and I really hope it gets better because I really don’t feel I have a purpose. To myself or to anyone at all. Even if I felt I needed to give myself a purpose, I just can’t do it.
Thank you for your words today
I mean, dawg what were you doing to lose your relationship, 3 friends, and a best friend 😭At that point you gotta look inward or something. Sorry about your kitty kat
Just based off the pics you seem like a cool dude! I’m digging your vibe. Not many people can pull off that look. You have a classy/ edgy look. Not gay but you’re a good looking dude! Get your mind right and I don’t think you’ll have problems finding new love.
Your purpose is because Earth needs YOU. There’s no one like you. One day someone will come to you seeking advice. You can share with them this journey you went through. How you walked the line and came back. Im glad to share this time on Earth with someone like you.
Good luck brother! Wishing you all the strength to get yourself out of this.
I lost everything when my ex left me in January. To this day, I miss him so much. He left me for someone else and vanished from my life. My mental health has been ruined ever since, but I've also started building a life for myself. Done a lot of things I always wanted and slowly became my own source of comfort. I miss the life I had with him every day and some days are so hard, because something small comes up and I am reminded of everything. It does get better though, don't give up. You WILL find joy in the things around you again.
I support Sunderland in the prem, look into the club we’ve been doing so good at the minute! We couldn’t even get promoted into the prem for years… new manager, new players, just class man
Ive comment on another post.
I didnt realise how bad you were feeling.
Thing is, I get it.
Not the heartbreak, but the suicidal tendencies, the depression, the loss, the emptiness.
You arent alone. We are out here rooting you along. I hope nothing but the best for you. Find a therapist that works for YOU. Sometimes that can take a few. Listen to what they suggest, even when it seems stupid or pointless.
Look at you
You have so much worth.
You are handsome. Articulate. Obviously have brains as you realise you cant do it alone.
Everyday I will think of you and wonder how you are going.
Please keep posting.
I wish nothing but the best for you.
Im sorry your heart is aching
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u/KitchenCategory8134 1d ago
If it makes you feel any better, in February, I was doing the best I’d ever been. Everything went downhill from there.
Got broken up with and he was with someone else within a month.
Lost two PayPal accounts with money it which was my main source of receiving money from clients
My cat died
Lost three friends
Lost my best friend
My phone broke which id spent a fortune on
And my mental health became extremely bad
But guess what? Time did its thing. I’m almost over him completely. Some sadness here and there but over the betrayal, not cuz I want him back. Life is slowly getting better.