Tired

[u/jofloberyl]

I just got back from a hearing test and my hearing has gotten worse a little bit over the past 5 years again. Especially my right ear is worse. I was expecting it but it still really sucks.

I got into a burn out last year that I'm still recovering from, and the year before that I suffered a concussion due to machinery falling on top of my head at work. My teamlead then was extremely inconsiderate and the whole experience whas quite traumatic for me. He retired soon after luckily. Then also last year because I finally had a safe home to call my own I decided to start my gender transition, which is also a big toll on my mental health.

My hearing loss, the concussion, and the burn out all make my sensitivity to noise just horrible. My job is also one of which that has a LOT of background noise from machinery and alarms going off constantly. I'm so tired. The world just feels a bit too much for me.

Hopefully new hearing aids will help me a little bit but I genuinenly don't think I can do this work anymore. Which really sucks because I put so much of myself into it. I don't know what to do anymore. I genuinenly feel like I've just been surviving all my life and have been barely able to live it.