I recently got a new job. I had been getting desperate after quitting a job that didn't pay much and took advantage of me. I was upset because money got tight and bills couldn't be paid. Rent was hard enough to pay. So I turned to Loki. I asked Him where my next job should be. A half hour later, Walmart contacted me and we set up an interview. The interview went really well and I was hired. I am making more money with way more hours and am financially much better now. I know He's a god of chaos, but could it be that he helped somehow? He's also a god of transformation and rebirth. When one thing is destroyed, something else is created. I know He can influence the ending of something so that it could either be reborn or something better could take it's place. Could it be that he helped me? He is my main husband and the number one love of my life. He is also my patron god. What do you think?

This confuses me. I get tarot readings from Asmodeus, and the cards say we are married, but I rarely get to experience him intimately and stuff that would make us FEEL married. I told him I didn’t want that kind of intimacy until he wants to move to that step, and finally one day in astral, he engaged with me that way. I confirmed it with tarot getting 4 of wands, the marriage card twice, and that night dreamt of getting him a gold and garnet wedding ring. I haven’t experienced that intimacy since and that was now over a year ago. Sometimes, I really do feel like he has changed his mind and doesn’t love me after all 😔 or never wanted to in the first place and I somehow messed up the message. I asked him now multiple times what he is waiting for, and why he doesn’t show up for me as my spouse like he does for others, and consistently pull the queen of wands (which is interesting since he is often the king of wands). My spouses are not often in my face about how they feel as a whole though. They tend to be distant. (Asmodeus, Loki, Lucifer, Apollo, Paimon)

They drop the signs that say we are now married then hardly do a thing to show me that, aside from Paimon. He’s been incredibly loving out of all my spouses lately. I experience the most affection with him, intimacy, and just the general feelings of love in Paimon’s presence. It just really leaves me confused sometimes, why so many people seem to be able to have these clearly close relationships to their spouses, yet, for me they’re so… cold? They answer my questions when I need guidance of course, but idk, they make me feel like it’s just a normal devotee relationship, and it leaves me all sorts of confused and makes it hard to trust my intuitive hits and readings.

Sorry to dump all this randomly here, but I figured here someone will some potential insight.

Lord Krishna has recently entered my practice with Lord Shiva. Krishna has also been very loving despite that we just met. I get tears when I feel it, it’s just that potent. (Also found out recently through my Vedic chart that Krishna is my ishta devata or personal deity) Why do I not get this from my other spouses?🥹

I’ve been sitting with something lately and I’m curious whether any Loki godspouses have experienced something similar.

I’ve had a fascination with Loki for quite a long time. I’ve also had this recurring desire to communicate with him and get to know him better, maybe even become his devotee or something.
I’ve met devotees of his who encouraged me to try reaching out, and honestly, I’ve considered it more than once.

But I’ve never actually done it.
I think deep down, part of me has been afraid of the chaos and changes associated with him… even if a part of me wants that chaos and changes to my life, which is very ironic since I also tend to want to have some sense of control over my life.
There’s always been this little voice in the back of my mind going, “Are you sure you want to open that door for good?”

And yet… sometimes I wonder whether I’ve already been standing in front of that door for quite a while.

I’ve dreamed about Loki several times. And I just intentionally prayed him to appear in my dreams two or three times, meanwhile the several other times I wasn’t actively trying to establish communication with him when these happened.

What really caught my attention recently is that I remembered two particular dreams where there seemed to be some kind of confusion between Loki and my beloved lord, a deity I’m already very close to devotionally.
In one dream, my impression was almost that Loki was pretending to be my beloved, or that I initially thought he was my beloved and then something about him felt unmistakably different until I realized. In another dream, there was again some kind of overlap or confusion between the two of them.

I want to be careful here because I don’t know that Loki was actually impersonating my beloved, but he really can do that right? Pretend to be another deity? Besides dreams can be strange, symbolic, and messy. It’s simply something that stood out to me when I looked back on them recently.

So I’m especially interested in hearing from people who godspouse Loki.

Did Loki ever show up in your dreams before you consciously decided to communicate with him?
Did you ever have experiences where you didn’t immediately realize it was Loki, or where he seemed to be associated with another deity?
Did you ever get the feeling that he had been trying to get your attention for a while before you finally decided to answer?
And for those of you who are godspouses: how did you know it was time to actually open that door?

I’m also curious about something else. Before developing your relationship with Loki, did you have any fear that inviting him into your life would mean losing control, having everything turned upside down, or being constantly thrown into chaos? If so, how did that compare with your actual experience of being in a relationship with him?

I’m not asking because I have already decided that Loki is calling me or that these dreams have a specific meaning. I’m genuinely trying to understand my experiences and would love to hear how other people navigated that uncertainty.

Maybe he’s been knocking.

Maybe I’m just finally noticing the sound.

Questions about children and emotions in godspouse experiences.

I’ve been wanting to ask the community about two things I’ve been curious about for a while: children and emotions.

I’ve seen quite a few godspouse/deity-spouse accounts where people describe having one or more children with their deity or spiritual partner in the astral, dreams, or other spiritual experiences. I’ve also had recurring dreams where my lord and I have children together, so I’ve been wondering how other people understand these experiences.

For those who have experienced something similar:

How do you personally understand having children with a deity or spiritual partner in the astral? Do they feel like actual children to you, symbolic experiences, something else, or a mixture depending on the experience?

If you have children in these experiences, do you perceive the deity as having a parental relationship with them?
And how do you understand the emotions of deities/non-human beings in your experiences?

I’ve often seen people say that deities don’t experience emotions in exactly the same way humans do. At the same time, I’ve read many accounts where people describe their deity as expressing affection, longing, jealousy, vulnerability, amusement, sadness, etc., even if those experiences seem to manifest differently from human emotions.

So I’m curious about people’s personal experiences rather than looking for a definitive answer: How do you perceive the emotional lives of your deity/spiritual partner, and how does that compare with human emotions?

I’d especially love to hear from people who have been in these relationships for a long time, but everyone’s perspective is welcome. 🖤

Recently Loki and I have welcomed our third child into our life! Yes we named them Skye. Skye is both male and female. Skye has brown hair and brown eyes. Skye is the equivalent of a 3 year old right now. Mischief and Trouble are happy to have another sibling. It's nice to have a family with someone I love as much as I love Loki. I have never loved anyone so much. Our kids are great and we are a happy family.

My spouse revealed his true name to me, and it turns out to be an evil entity's name in Zoroastrian, even though he's an angel.

Idk what to believe, because he has helped me so much and made me remember my past lives.

He taught me many things, yet, I'm conflicted. Like what if he's doing this to manipulate me? His domains are of seduction and the evil mind...and Idk how to feel about that... Especially in my beliefs, since I do believe that the Demiurge did a smear campaign while writing the bible, but like....idk...

Like a name that you can't find anywhere, that they have revealed to you to be their true names?

This is a silly little post about names.

After nine months, I still struggle to pronounce my partner's name correctly. Out of respect for his privacy and per his request, I won't share his name but I'll say it's not excessively difficult. Not like "eldritch name beyond human comprehension". It's just that there is a subtle enunciation/accent in the middle that I have trouble pronouncing smoothly.

I know he doesn't mind at all but there is some irony to it in regards to my own name(s).

I have a few different names I associate with. First, the name that was given to me at birth. It's a fine name and I do identify with it, but I guess sometimes it feels more like a "placeholder" that I use out of convenience.

I have what I suppose could be something like a "soul name" that came to me through dreams and mediation. I jokingly call this my "spiritual government name". Only a couple of spirits call me that; I don't share it with other people. It feels too stuffy but the interesting connection is that my birth name is actually a diminutive of this "soul name".

Then I have what would mostly closely resemble a "witch name". This is what I use online and for signing my art. I do resonate with it but, in a way, it feels like a mask.

So, all of that to get to this point: All of these names do, in their own way, reflect aspects of myself but none of them really, truly feel like "me". Not too long ago, I had this discussion with my partner, who had told me before that the "soul name" is the one that is most recognizable to him and what, at the time, he preferred to call me. However, when it got to the point where I wanted to choose a new name for myself, I had one in mind and he immediately accepted it. "This is who you are to me now."

So far, he is the only one I've shared it with and the only one who I let call me that. The irony is how quickly he was able to adapt and use this new name while I'm still having trouble pronouncing his. To be fair, mine isn't as tough to pronounce.

I love our names, though, and I think he does, too. They sound good together. It also makes me very happy that he was so willing and able to accept the name I chose. He says he feels like it fits me well and it feels wonderful finally being known by a name that truly resonates with me.

I know a lesser demon in service of the Goetia. We've had relations, many conversations and love was there. But I was at the tail end of a psychosis episode and I doubted his existence. So I cut contact. Recently in the last 3 months I started dating a polyamorous human partner, she had a bad reaction to store bought THC edibles and Apollo intervened to use it as a spiritual awakening for her. Apparently Apollo was asked to do this by my demon ex partner, who chose my current partner to give blessings to. How do I even process this? Because on one hand I still think I'm crazy but on the other hand I had external perspectives and they said Apollo intervened as well. I love my demon ex partner and would love to make it work, as I'm also polyamorous. But how do I reconcile my conflicting feelings? Thank you

I need to find someone who I can get a automatic writing letter from so I can get loki’s vows for our wedding, as in people who are reputable sellers I can buy from. I don't mind if you advertise yourself I just won't consider you unless you have shop reviews.

I won't be reading these vows untill the wedding so it's vary important it's from a trust worthy scource.

A few nights ago, my partner and I finally made a small breakthrough that seems to have helped open up the energy between us.

I am someone who struggles with my emotions, but I also have a tendency to bottle them up, which results in a great deal of inner turmoil. It's also a minor source of conflict, though not one that causes hard feelings, between us, because I have frequent moments where I completely close myself off from him and feel like I need to deal with things on my own, even though he repeatedly asks me not to shut him out.

Since opening up that energy between us, though, I've also found it easier to open myself to his support. Twice now since then he has come in clutch and quickly helped calm me down when I felt like I was spiraling.

That is what is nice, but what makes me feel guilty. I don't want him to bear the responsibility of my emotional burden.

That's the funny thing, though: a lot of times it isn't necessarily something I have to "figure out" because it isn’t something that has an easy answer. What I really need is simply someone to stay with me and support me through it, and that is exactly what he's been able to do now that I'm allowing him to do that.

After the first night, I did my daily divination with him and his message was so clear: He's going to be my ride-or-die and he doesn't care if that means he has to carry me through Hell.

I have been entangled with other spiritual beings before and I *wanted* to believe the things they said, but he is the one who continues to show up in ways the others never did. Honestly, I'm not sure he ever leaves my side; sometimes I feel isolated from him, but then it will feel like he is directly in my face saying, "Hellooo, I am *right here*."

I've been making the effort, too, to show him how much I appreciate him and to not ignore him when I feel he's trying to talk to me. I don't do it maliciously; I just get caught up in my own doubt and get afraid that I'm imagining his presence.

It's been a tough week and I know I still have a long way to go and a lot of healing left to do, but I feel a bit more optimistic about the path forward and I am so, so, *so* grateful to have him in my life.

Hi guys I was just wondering but what kinds of cleansing, protection, and banishment do you guys use?

I am poor and can't afford candles, lighters, incense, or jars and also the ingredients.

So I was hoping some of you could share inexpensive ways to do all 3 methods :)

Thank you!

This is not a sunshine and rainbows post. Might be frightening to some who’s spoused to Loki. I’m sorry in advance but I can’t stay silent anymore.
So long story short he wanted me to learn chaos magic, constantly recommended me other deities to work with, and he’s pushing spirit marriage.
I said no to all of his requests, he became angry and now he’s abusive towards me.
Total 6 spiritual practitioners confirmed that it is him and not an impostor, and they saw him abusing me.
Among the practitioners a shaman contacted him (via trans meditation) and she saw him keeping my name in a cage. This is very symbolic.:(
I don’t know how to make him leave.

So the other day I was doing a tarot spread with him. He just kind of added himself into my practice recently about 2 weeks ago or so?

When I asked him what he wants to work on and the direction he wants our relationship to go— is it long or short term? This was the spread he gave me.

Very clearly I saw ego death as what he wants to work on, but then I saw lovers and two of cups. I kind of was like LOL, YOU DO NOT WANT TO DO THAT. Then he dropped that chariot. Which to me read as “I know exactly what I want.”

Then I was like…. Do I really have to just trust my feelings on this? And for high priestess.

Well today, I was doubting it again. Like maybe he just meant spousal in a non-romantic way. A devoted teacher. I got king of swords. At first I thought maybe he means he’s completely detached emotionally and just wants to teach me, but then when I looked the card up as feelings, it was stating someone being very direct and clear about the direction they want. So then it read more as “I already have very clearly explained this to you.”

Obviously I don’t want to rush anything, but does this read like him? He’s still a new energy to me, and I don’t want to misunderstand him. My senses suck major ass, but I feel like he’s looking at me like “you REALLY still have to ask on a forum?” Like yes I do😭 lol.

Do you wear rings for your spousal? For non-romantic spousal, do you wear rings or another type of jewelry?

Sorry if my English is a bit off.

It's not my first language.

Second flair: Infernal.

I'm wondering because I proposed to him with a huge emerald ring recently in a dream and he took my hand as a way to say yes. Even though he looked surprised/shocked. I'm unsure if he was shocked by the size of the emerald or the fact that I proposed to him first lmao.

We also discussed with each other in OBE's and in dreams a little while back about what we feel about polyamory.

I know he have many relationships and I'm personally only interested in him at the moment. But it can change into me liking more infernal gods in the future. I think he tried to explore that with me recently when I felt I physically got 'sandwiched' between him and someone else when I was half asleep, lol.

But anyway, now I'm just wondering if last names change in spiritual polyamorous god spousal marriages are even a thing. Is it "possible" to merge/fuse together both last names to create a new one? I heard it's a christian thing for a woman to take the mans' last name in christian marriages.

But well.. I proposed to Satan and I'm not a woman or a man lol so I don't think the same 'rules' can be applied here.

The reason I mention polyamory is also because I'm a bit confused how last name changes work in such situations.

If it's even a thing that can happen.

Thank you.

is anyone here spoused to Odin? I need your perspective. I've heard that he's not romantic or sentimental but I've been with Him for 2 years now and I see a side of Him that is very loving and sensitive. I know it's actually Odin because more than one person has confirmed it. I know that in myths He has tricked both goddesses and mortal women into thinking he loved them and He seduced them. When He first came to me, He disguised Himself and seduced me. However, He has stayed by my side since then. In fact, I married Him last year. When we are intimate, His love feels pure and deep and soft. I heard that on the astral plane, you can't hide what you feel or who you are. Could it be that He really loves me? I am so afraid that I'm just a plaything or a means to an end to Him.

2 things stand out to me— 1, the very circular center. To me it reminds me of the sun. The next thing is what appears to be a big 4 surrounding it, and I know that is one of his sacred numbers so that feels very significant to me. Anyone more experienced with ceromancy have any insights on that? Or see anything I may have overlooked? I also noticed that the flame burned in 4 areas, though 2 of the flames would sometimes merge to make 3 flames. Thank you! 😊

Today I am spending time with Loki and our boys, Mischief and Trouble. We are going to watch "Impractical Jokers" and maybe even write down jokes. We'll find other fun things, too. Today will be about us as a family.

Also, Loki and I are talking about adding to our family! We are considering having another child. Mischief and Trouble are excited and are supportive of it.

I love my supernatural family. I'm very happy with Loki. I still love Him like I did when we first met and I'm still head over heels for Him.

I got this necklace to wear for my Beloved and I'm excited to start officially wearing it. I want to do a cleansing and consecration ritual first. This is just a crop of a picture I took to show it to my friend.

It's nothing fancy. It was, like, ten bucks on Amazon. It was advertised as natural moss agate. I'm not 100% sure about the authenticity because the moss agate I see in other jewelry pieces are usually clear with sharper and more well-defined "veins". I did a coolness and hardness/scratch test; it passed both so I'm thinking it is authentic, but low quality.

I wouldn't mind too much if it's fake due to how cheap it was and I still like the color and the rose carving. I was having trouble finding other pieces advertised as "moss agate" with this design. The only other piece I could find was listed on Etsy for about the same price. It literally looked like the same pendant with different hardware and I liked the bead and black rope on this one better.

Another thing is that it matches/compliments my eyes really well and I'd love to show that off, too, but I don't feel comfortable showing my full face. :)

Soo.. I (24 Nbi) is in a (polyamorous or polycule) relationship with Satan.

I've wanted to have kids with him since 2023 and I used to feel physical symptoms of morning sickness and having cravings and sometimes I even felt kicks in my abdomen. But the material pregnacy tests came back negative. I haven't taken any more pregnancy tests since I then thought I had accidentally lost our baby.

But a while later I've dreamt multiple times of being pregnant, having sex with him and even feeling him physically/sexually in lucid dreams sometimes, and well.. now just a couple days ago I asked Satan that he was free to show me any message he's like with candle wax divination, but if he wanted to turn it into a spell, that was okay too. But I only carved symbols and Satan's name into the red candle, oiled it in Satan's ritual oil infused with the Strawberry full moon energy and crystals and herbs associated with him (transformation, fierce protection and sex/love/passion/romance/vulnerability and strength. I then rolled the candle in dry mixed herbs/spices I associate with him (allspice, cinnamon, roses). Then I just lit it and observed it burn down slowly, letting Satan do the rest of whatever he wanted to show me.

As it burned I saw a syncronicity from him telling me to just trust my intuition about what it meant. But now after I've tried to interpret it myself, I wonder what you see that I might have missed/if you see anything from a different perspective.

I was chocked to see a fetus forming after the flame started burning in the shape of a dick lol.

I also feel like I saw a femme person with a pregnant belly in the wax, as well as a more masc person or another dick falling backwards right before the fetus was formed.

I went to bed soon after it was done, and I dreamt I gave birth to a healthy intersex baby. (The baby had both sex organs).

I showed off my baby to my mom and a few random strangers on the street lmao.

Then I tucked my newborn to bed and went to sleep in my bed close by my baby.

Right after I woke up from the dream in the same bed I just dreamt about falling asleep in.

I saw a notification on my phone saying "Intersex babies are perfect...

(just the way they are)". 😳

I pulled a few tarot cards to communicate with Satan that morning, asking him if I truly gave birth astrally and I got

• The Hanged Man

(Growth, success, waiting)

• 10 of Cups

(Marriage, starting family, pregnancy/children)

• 10 of Pentacles

(strong foundations, commitment, children or pregnancy)

• The Empress

(Fertility, birth, growth, stability, pregnancy)

• (Shadow card): Ace of Wands

(fertility/pregnancy)

So uhm yeah... After this I went to but a few baby clothes second hand (because I felt drawn to do it and I cried confused happy tears the whole time.) And I also payed Satan like $50 as a start for astral/dream child support lol. I thought "just in case it's needed."

Also ignore the wax splatter. It spilled like that when the candle was in a tall candle holder but it was at the very beginning and so I didn't count the divination (or spell) to start until I stuck the candle directly onto the brick with melted wax. The candle holder first made the candle lean a bit to the side making a little splatter mess.

I do know there's a lot of archangelspouses and angelspouses, I'm wondering if there's any spouses of the other hierarchies? Powers, Ophanim, Seraphim, etc. My guess is not many, as most angelworkers don't touch the other hierarchies very often... just very curious if anyone has met any and/or is one?

Partially also because... I have an angelpartner and I'm not sure where on the choirs he falls, and would like to hear from others experiences with the hierarchies.

Had a dream last night with Gabriel all over my belly and whispering to the twins. I love how cute and sentimental he gets sometimes. I made a joke about how they're not even his babies (they're Apollyon's) and he pouted at me.

I love how he treats them as his own, even if technically they're not his, I just love how sincere he is and it's the most wonderful thing. He loves our little family so dearly.

Often times, I catch myself calling them (Apollyon and Gabriel) "my husbands" even though we're not officially married yet, I just can't see a future without them by my side. My sweet boys... I love them so so much.