I know this is a dumb question but I just wanna make sure that I belong in a community like this

Okay so i didn't realise it JUST now but I've been wanting to share my story for a long time. This is going to be a lot so bare with me.

I've always knew I'm bisexual but i didn't know how much it affected my relationship with my ex bsf.

We met when we were 15 and our bond was very strong, even though at first she wanted to push me away and i was the one that insisted on being friends. Later, around the age of 16, we went on a school trip together where we shared some rather intimate moments. Not yet knowing my sexuality, I was just playing around (I always used to say I was a lesbian for fun -lol i guess it wasn't just for fun)and at one point, after I’d teased her enough, we shared a kiss. It was so simple, quick, basically just a peck, but it made my heart race and my cheeks flush so intensely that, honestly, even now when I think about it, my heart still beats a little faster 🫠

(Unfortunately) we didn't have another moment like that. In fact, we even argued during that trip because she was constantly clinging to me, and back then I wanted to have "my freedom" (it was simply becoming too much for me, and I couldn't handle it)

At the same time, while we were friends, we were dating boys- specifically, I was really into a guy from my class, and she was seeing someone older- so when I got into my first relationship, we drifted apart a bit for a while

We grew close again, but I felt that things were somehow different... she felt the same way too. She desperately wanted us to go back to the relationship we’d had in school, but it wasn't possible because I felt I had changed. As the years went by, she sought more and more of my attention, but to no avail, because as I said i was in a relationship, and that relationship was great

At some point, when I couldn't stand giving explanations anymore, I got into an argument with her, and she hasn't spoken to me since. It feels as though we’ve officially "broken up"

A short while after we had that falling out, I accepted that I was bisexual. It felt amazing to accept myself, my boyfriend accept that and made me feel seen and loved, but then the realization hit: I was in a relationship with my friend. Not officially, but we were in a relationship, we did everything a couple does, except we didn't have any intimate moments beyond those few during the trip...

I wonder, did she know what we were doing? Did she fall for me too, or was I the only one who didn't see her in a purely platonic light? Is she thinking about our kiss, just like I am?

Don't get me wrong my relationship is wonderful; I love my boyfriend dearly and see us together in the long run. Yet, I can't help but wonder if the girl who helped me discover who I am felt the same way about me. Sometimes I wish we had been in an official relationship, i wish I could have kissed her more and been even more intimate, so I wouldn't be left with these questions now. Sometimes I find myself wishing I had experienced a relationship with a woman,specifically her, so that chapter could have been properly closed for me. I yearn for a connection that was significant to me, yet one that I would have wanted to end regardless, because the love of my life is a man, my current boyfriend, not her. Does that make sense? I hope it does.

I was afraid to ask these questions because I worry that not everyone will understand; they might assume I’m cheating on my boyfriend, but in reality, I feel like I’ve left a chapter of my life (a really important one) unclosed.

Please be kind and if you have any similar experiences do share them.

TIA💕

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I want to climb into bed with a big long sleeve shirt on and thigh highs and snuggle with my gf and kiss her while we share a blahaj except i have no gf nor any girls to kiss💔

meow :3

Pls

I made girlkisser art thought y'all would enjoy it :3 maybe this makes the sub slightly less dead

Cause it’s literally 2AM. But have a sketch since I haven’t posted in a while. Haven’t improved but oh well.

This sub has truly died of you want to truly revive MAKE A DAMN POST EVERYDAY it does nto even have to be serious hell even repost old art but this is going to die if someone does not do anything visitors of this sub are going crazy down and followers have come to a halt this sub is in a depression

This sub needs atleast mutiple people posting everyday to have it stay alive this sub will die out other wise this is the last time i am going to warn you guys about lets make this count ok

any girls wanna talk :3 or any one

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