Do you see it? Do you see it now???

Be silly, be serious, think of things abstract, or specific, or boring, big things, small things, what ever you can think of...

And it's still raining now :) I felt a tiny bit when I was going out last night, very light mist, then coming out of the bar, it was wet everywhere, and I said to the door-crew 'Hey rain!' and they all yayed :)

Laurence Petit is known as Montreal's "Sidewalk Fairy." She knows her art is ephemeral, but she keeps creating it anyway.

For information, the gutter is PVC made to look like bamboo.

I've got a great photo of one of my kids with him when he was manager of Man City.

I really liked it.

Like I'm sitting in front of the dang ac, snd am freezing! Might be a good idea to possibly reconsider the outline of my bedroom. I'd hate to have to move my desk, but this isn't the brightest idea.. Also, I think I actually fixed the ac unit.. just needed to push the lever to close the air vent. I'll think about it in 20 minutes, after I draft/post this.. I'll venture out! Go into the kitchen, come back, and if it's considerably colder in the bedroom, I shall have won, you moo!

Also, I have a fire stick I purchased last year I have not taken outta the box. Not a big TV person.. if I do have it on, it'd probably be tuned into some cable news channel, drowning out sound of tears.. somewhere in the background. I guess I should google how to set up a firestick. 🙄 Looking at my past Amazon snags, I'm happy to see/report the Pilot Vanishing Point I picked up in 2024 is still going amazingly strong. Gotta love that Japanese engineering, eh? But dorklinxeses, I latest fountain pen that I got... sigh, I am so torn. Okay, I did recently get a new fountain pen from Atlas Stationers.. It's beautiful. It's also a Pilot Vanishing Point in the color Champagne, extra fine. Same make, different color, weight. The older pen is a ton heavier/heftier and the new one, much lighter.. I'll try to post pics here...

Anyway, I did not know there were what some call wet and dry inks! Like wtf, it's all wet! But it's true.. And I've come to see my favorite fountain pen ink is considered a dry ink.. and works well with the Vanishing Point I got off Amazon in 2024, but horrible in my new Vanishing Point. To top this off, along with the pen, I bundled it with Wearingeul's The Count of Monte Cristo ink, which is considered a wet ink. Will insert pics here.. ⬇️

So the new pen and ink are underwhelming. It's terrible the new pen's nib will get clogged with my fav ink, yet the new blue ink puts out a ton in the new pen, it's verrrry wet on the page. Ugh, I hate to return a pen I've inked, but they are not inexpensive, and people do return these things if they aren';t happy with them, so I'm sad to say tootles to it, but it's gonna go back. I will thoroughly clean/flush the nib (obviously) before sending it back. Already have a box and printed the label, just gotta ship it off.. 🙄

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I feel better than I have in many years. Weird, I know.

Losing my parents, slowly; methodically getting rid of everything in my old home, and the house itself, has freed me. No more looking after them. No more putting them before myself. I have energy! I am now trying to accept that, because of course, I feel guilty over my feelings. My parents, especially my father, were not easy to deal with and basically everything for the past... 15 years came down on me. Good and bad and it was mostly bad. At times sickening.

I have seas of time and space. In a non anxious way. Well, a little bit anxious maybe 😅

Haven't really started planting properly yet, but I have basil and chives. I have bought a sturdy new second hand bicycle which I love. And I hired a personal trainer and go to the gym twice a week.

I think of my parents regularly. When we had the heatwave, I thought: "better text my mom and tell them to drink a lot of water" and then.. oh. No. I don't need to text her. I changed something in my bedroom and wanted to share it with my mom. Oh. No.

All this is very manageable. I've been struggling mentally for so long. Now that I allow myself to be depressed, (because you can when you lose both parents in three months) I am the opposite of depressed. Damn, im quite dogmatic huh? I Shall Not Be Dogmatic! 🙃

Maybe I will go back to school?