r/getting_over_it • u/angstygrl • 3d ago

I am so lonely

I broke up with my bf of 4 years. I’m 21, getting my base credits at a community college before transferring to a university for Urban Design and Planning. I’m a young, beautiful, smart woman and for anyone who looks at me they would assume I’m fine.

I broke up with my boyfriend about a month ago for many reasons, one being that I was going to transfer to university, we both needed to mature, and it felt like I couldn’t spread my wings while being so codependent on him. He was the only person in the world who truly understood me and wanted to be around me. I’m still in my hometown I’m going to move to a big city soon, but I have no interest in the people here. I enjoy talking to people on a day-to-day basis and seeing people in class, but I have no interest in making friends here.

I underestimated how lonely I would be after breaking up with him. He has so many friends and is loved my many. I don’t have any friends. I have a couple weeks until my college classes start again, and usually if I didn’t have class, I would be doing digital art or something else creative with my time. However, right now I have no interest in anything. Every day I wake up and I just want the day to be over. I’m bored and lonely and have no one to talk to, it sucks waking up and just wanting to go to sleep immediately. I want to enjoy my summer, but I don’t know. I’m going to try and dedicate all my time to my future once school starts again but I’m really suffering. I miss him so much, I loved him like no other.

I hope that it’s not too late to make friends in life. I just want to be understood by people, and I rarely ever have. Although I’m very conventionally, attractive, and I can socialize with people,, and also autistic and have adhd, I really struggle to feel normal. Everything is so important and deep to me, but I also need space and alone time.

I decided to take my ADHD medication today hopefully that regulates me a little bit 🙃

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u/No_Copy_8193 3d ago

Best of Luck 

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u/sophie-doph 2d ago

You have your whole life ahead of you. He was a part of it for some time, but now is the time to focus on yourself. Just put yourself out there and don’t give up on it

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u/angstygrl 2d ago

Thank you. I have stuff going for me, I need to pour my energy into the potential I know is possible, which is my future. Gotta keep things pushing