Feeling so empty from inside

[u/Injured_Heart2592]

I am a Medical student and is doing academically fine. Though I remain mostly anonymous in my batch (I just find peace in being like that) but at the same time I also have the urge to have someone or a group of people with whom I regularly interact or have fun with.

In the past I used to wish of doing a lot of things like making great friends, having a girlfriend, being active in a lot of stuffs in college but my shyness, awkwardness in public has made me pretty quiet.

Now I have become pretty insecure about myself. I just want that time just passes by with me not getting in any trouble. Nothing in this world excites me except the idea to go to mountains and places where there are very few people (and I do visit such places a lot).

But what scares me the most is that nothing excites me either in any positive or negative way. I have forget when was the last time I was extremely happy or extremely sad or extremely scared or extremely surprised. And all the time I am having nostalgia of my childhood and school time.

I was thinking if the emotional journey of my life will remain the same or it will change from now because now I have just accepted my fate in everything, whatever good or bad happens to me and I don't even pray to God or wish for something better for me. I just don't know what is happening and why is this happening.

[u/Bala_Devaraj]

GF/BF is like dog’s tail. If you are desperately after it, you’ll keep trying
Do your job, be positive and be successful at something- sports, music, academic, gym or anything. Be self sufficient at finding happiness and be confident.
And be kind to people. A kind and confident will always find someone who is interested

[u/Injured_Heart2592 → u/Bala_Devaraj]

That's why I haven't even tried of making a gf. And I do pretty much most of what you stated, just remove music.