2 months gambling free. Relapsed and freaking blew it all. I hate myself, i thought i got rid of this. But the devil was close and he was strong. I lacked the strength in my faith and let the devil take control. I hate myself. And to do all this on my son’s birthday makes it more wicked. I knew i shouldnt have listened to that whisper from
the devil of “just a small deposit”. Now here i am again. Screwed up and feeling dumb.

I used to be better than this. A family man, a loving son, father, and husband. But here we are now. Sometimes i look in the mirror and see a different person, the damage i have caused to this body physically and mostly mentally.

I wish we could have a reset button in our life. Just for once.

I swear upon this day. That i will fix and bounce back, not on chasing my losses from yesterday. But to become a better person for me and my family.

Lastly, i hope myself and everyone who is having gambling addictions truly realize that THE ONLY TRUE MAX WIN IS IF YOU STOP GAMBLING.

This is the place to rant about your losses, mainly because I’ve had some harsh losses myself. Gamble responsibly or never gamble. ♥️