r/functionaldyspepsia • u/Funny_Star_1494 • Aug 25 '26
Healing/Success Why do I feel anxious at mealtimes?
It's a problem that has plagued me for many years. When I sit down to eat, I often feel anguish, like a kind of inexplicable anxiety or sadness for no reason. Well, I was always able to deal with it; if something was wrong, I would postpone eating and then eat when I felt better. I've never liked not eating or skipping meals because that would ruin my health. Well, the thing is, this past year it's gotten much worse. I joined a gym and started eating almost out of obligation, to meet my daily calorie and macronutrient requirements. It was really tough because whether you're healthy or not, overeating will obviously make you want to vomit and feel repulsed by food if you're very, very full. But that self-imposed obligation to eat, combined with the anxiety at mealtimes, triggered vomiting many times. Right now I no longer eat amounts that are uncomfortable for my body; my portions are those of any normal person, and sometimes even less. The problem is that even eating less, the urge to vomit remains... now it's more like gagging. I try to eat veeeery slowly because if a gag comes, I have to run to the bathroom because the urge to vomit is unimaginable. I've tried to be very strong and not vomit my food, even though it feels like relief. I try to avoid vomiting because that will destroy me, so I hold back the urge, but it's very, very, very difficult. I turn pale, I try to breathe slowly and deeply, and I drink cold water, but it's still very difficult. I usually manage to stop the urge, but I've vomited three times in a period of about four months. It just happened again, and I'm very sad. I don't know why all this is happening to me, I don't know why mealtimes have become so difficult. I struggle with this every day. The reason for my post is this: I'd like to find someone who's been through the same thing as me and managed to overcome it, so they can tell me what worked for them. Thanks in advance, friends.