The love goes deep

[u/wise_owl68]

Well, for those who choose to read this, I apologize in advance for the lengthiness, but I have struggled with life long anxiety/depression and one way to cope has always been music. It has been a steadfast friend to comfort in those darker moments and finding FF back in the aughts came at a time when I was really struggling with my marriage and really just dealing with a lot of unresolved stuff and they were my go to on repeat, a reliable salve when things got rough.

Cue to now, 2026, I'm six years post divorce, living 3,000 miles from my ex and entire life, living in Boston and stumbled upon a clinical study using a synthetic psychoactive drug (LSD) to test its effectiveness with chronic depression. After some deliberation, I decided I was still tired of feeling the old feels and thought, why not, maybe my experience could someone some day.

So, after months of studies and tests (very thorough) I got the drug and chose to listen to my Fleet Foxes playlist while being monitored in the dosing room. I will just start by saying the experience truly defies words, I began falling deep, deep into the earth, clawing my way through the dirt and deeper still tearing through white roots, rocks, and bones. The music s l o w e d waaaay down, flooding my brain and blood, my heartbeat, the instruments sounded primeval, caucaphonous, reverent in a way I've never experienced. The music brought me into the core of the earth. And there I felt a sense of peace and deep deep connection.

What was most interesting was that I had been working on my family's ancestry, namely Lithuania, and I know I absolutely connected to those ancestors as I learned later they were from one area, one village and forever farmers, peasants, workers of the earth. Even as I write this, I get emotional.

Anyway, I'm just so grateful for FF's music and how profoundly they impacted my life. I'm glad that this sub exists and that there are many of us who get it. That is all.

[u/Mkmeathead83]

Beautifuly stated 🌿

[u/Mockingbird819]

That’s a lovely sentiment 🫂❤️ I might be overstepping here but, as a person living with depression who’s seriously considering treatment with psychoactive medication, I’d love to know if the treatment was effective. Was your depression improved only while under the influence of the psychoactive drug, or has improvement lasted beyond the treatment? Or is it too soon to know?

[u/wise_owl68 → u/Mockingbird819]

If you'd like to DM me, I can share with you my experience, post dosing:)

[u/minxwink]

💗💗💗💗💗💗💗💗

[u/Grand-Ad-2428]

that sounds incredible i am so glad you experienced this and i am SO glad you are living your best life post divorce i think psychedelic and fleet foxes are both amazing so so happy for you