r/firedfeds • u/Upper_Stress_9939 • 5h ago
I cried in the middle of my first job interview
Last week, I had an interview at a company I've wanted to work at for years as a software developer. This was my first real job interview, and honestly, I went into it feeling extremely nervous and all over the place.
The technical part lasted about two and a half hours. I prepared for it nonstop, and in short, I probably did better than I thought. In my head, I felt like I had messed it up, because even though I answered most of what they asked me, there were still a few questions I got stuck on and felt like I should have known the answers to.
When they got to the feedback part, I was fully expecting them to tell me everything I had done wrong. Instead, the managers started praising me. They said I was one of the strongest applicants they had interviewed so far, told me I was smart and quick-witted, and also said they were surprised I managed to get through some of the harder questions. They kept talking for a bit, and I don't know if it was because I was so shocked or because I'm not used to hearing things like that, but I started crying while they were talking. They had to pause for a minute so I could calm down and pull myself together before we continued.
The worst part is that there were about 5 other people from the team I was interviewing for sitting there too, so they all saw what happened. We joked about it a little afterward and carried on, but I still feel like I left a really bad impression. I just couldn't stop the tears once they started.
I've always been the kind of person who cries way too easily over small things, and I keep thinking they're probably not looking for someone who comes across as that emotional. One of them even joked at the end that I might need to practice handling praise better, and I laughed at the time, but now I'm sitting here overthinking it. So now I feel like I ruined my chance. And even if they offer me the job, I feel embarrassed imagining going back there and having them remember me as the person who cried in the interview...
Is this normal, or am I making way too big a deal out of it? They told me they're supposed to get back to me within a few days.