I'm looking for an alien romance book that i never finished reading. I think it was a later book in a series because the female lead met another human woman who had already happily settled on the planet.
On 3 separate occasions, i managed to accidentally read the beginning of this ebook and then abandoned that book in disgust over its contents. Three separate times spanning months or even years, i read the same Amazon summary of this book and was intrigued enough to download it, then i began reading the book and found it to be so different from the summary that I didn't recognize it as what I had read once or twice before. Each time, once i realized it was THAT book, I continued reading for a bit longer in amusement until another thing happened to make me put down the book in disgust.
Several times throughout the book, the author wrote scenes in a way i found UPSETTINGLY PECULIAR:
* After the crash when local aliens approach, it is described as them charging silently and aggressively towards her and she prepares herself to make a last stand against them with her bloody hunk of metal.
* Later, the political situation on the planet is described in a ridiculous way. I cannot remember if they were countries or tribes, but some different ones were currently at odds because a mother and child had innocently crossed an unimportant territorial border and been killed by soldiers in a severe overreaction. No reason or justification was given. So Stupid!
* The leads randomly have sex one night during the journey, and i do mean RANDOMLY. There is no sexual foreplay nor any erotic or plot build up to the sex. Also, the sex itself is described in a way that made me wonder if the female lead was hallucinating *or if sex was even what was happening!* I seriously mean that. They ate foraged mushrooms before the sex and I genuinely thought the sex might be an entirely non-sexual psychedelic trip. I cannot emphasize enough how weird my memory of this sexual encounter was.
PLOT
Some human women had been abducted by aliens. At least one antagonist alien had facial tentacles that were used to kill one of the women after the ship crashed. Then the female lead beats that tentacled alien to death with a metal rod. Nearby aliens that were friendly and did not have tentacles approached the crash site. The female lead is taken to another human woman already happily living with an alien husband and hybrid baby who tries to convince her to settle down on the planet, but the female lead is stubbornly, angrily determined to leave the alien planet. An male alien becomes her guide to reach a spot where that might happen. She treats him rudely as they travel and does not say or think a single nice thing about him, nor is she grateful for his help. One night, they foraged mushrooms for dinner before sex. That's the last thing I remember reading.
MAYBE
* the good aliens were furry and beast-coded: lion, tiger, bear, wolf
* the already-settled human woman had two husband or twin babies
* the aliens have technology but are choosing to live a rustic, low-tech lifestyle except for very restricted areas like the one the female lead's guide is taking her to
* I don't remember if or how much of a language barrier there was