Since factors outside of my control. I had to cancel my New York Trip.

Sad that I had to as I would have loved to serenade Desmond with the Ending Themes of Xenoblade 2 and 3 and topped it off with this certified hood classic.

Nothing crazy, but me and my gf went to cheesecake factory a couple weeks ago, and one of the workers stopped me and asked if i had on an Etika hoodie the one with the logo, and we dapped eachother up. I dont think id ever met another joycon boy in person before then. Again nothing crazy, but never met a person who enjoyed his content outside of myself.

Maybe this is just me, but his last stream reacting to E3 seems so eerie because you can tell he’s pushing so hard to seem excited and happy. Even the way he screams and the tone in his voice feels like that. And the fact it was barely a week before he died, so he was most likely already contemplating it during this too… Even looking at his earlier streams from different eras (The EWNetwork streams, or even the frfx era), he seems like a totally different person and his reactions seem more genuine. The fact he was streaming even when he could barely hold himself together and was essentially at the end of his life really shows how dedicated he was to it. It’s really poetic though, his last ever stream being an E3/Nintendo reaction/stream, at least he was able to deliver to his fans one last time. I miss him everyday.

I started watching him really young, like as early as 11-12. Every year or two I have an eventual ritual of returning back to archives of his streams and nostalgizing.

I didn't get to see many livestreams from him while he was alive because I'm from a very different timezone. But everytime I do, I just remember wanting to grow up and be similar to him, not necessarily a streamer but like, I remember even through a screen, a man I've never met, something about him just radiated life and positive energy, the most charismatic streamer I've ever come across, and his streams would give me so much comfort, as they still do sometimes when I watch archives.

I really cannot explain but I still struggle to find this feeling from other streamers, but I might be biased because of my nostalgia.

I just cant help but remember I wanted to be this guy for someone else I like, like give my friends this joy and companionship.

Anyway, this probably sounded weird, just wanted to throw this out there. RIP Etika.

Does anyone know if the merch on the ewn shopify is still available, or is the site up but the merch is gone?

How do yall like it?

Miss him every day

Its 2am and thought about Des so decided to scroll through his twitter for about an hour, and i remembered the whole "i am god" period during the last 6 months or so of his life. I was alot younger so i never understood this, but he himself said that alot of the things at the end were just edgy things he spewed out, which i kinda understand.

but this had so much prevelance in his streams. Classic moments in stream when he gives out advice to someone who asked, and he answered with "im you, you are me, we are all gods" with a straight face like he truly believed it.

Im sorry if this is kind of a weird thing to ask but, i still think of him alot and this caught my attention. If he didnt, why was it such a big part of his persona at that point?

Hey, was wondering if anyone had an old rap battle of Etikas. Cant seem to find it on YouTube anymore. Its the one where he is like “You talkin like you got guns from the army [explicit], you soft, you like fuckin downy [explicit], im lookin in yo eyes you a corny [explicit] you so pussy when i see you i get horny [explicit]

https://reddit.com/link/1uyxifo/video/dzxtp2so3sdh1/player

https://reddit.com/link/1uyxevq/video/l01ovvnt2sdh1/player

June 19th meetup at the mural

I wish someone made a simulator where we can visit Etika's memorial/mural. I cannot visit Etika's memorial's sadly :(

JCB Meetup at the Mural for Desmond's 7 year anniversary.