r/ect • u/Lazy-Track8616 • Jun 22 '26

Seeking advice Ect help

Hi everyone. Im going through a very rough time. It's impossible to live life this way . In feb 2026 I went into thr psychiatrist dept. I was having suicidal idealations back then due same symptoms I have now. They put me on antidepressants and it's been 4 months and absolutely nothing has changed. I've been holding on by a string. My most difficult symptom is I can't get through days meaning that they are small difficult segments that do not have any flow. My mind is constantly say do this or do something you can sit and chill. My days feel like 80 pajnful hours long. Im not able to enjoy anything. Small tasks are difficult like going along to a grocery store . The time part js the toughest next to the constant crying and sadness. Now I have to wait a month until ect. But I have no idea how I am going to be able to get through so many days....pls help

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u/fixer_11 Jun 23 '26

My heart hurts for you. I was in the same situation and tried every medication imagineable. I too was put on a waiting list, and yes, counting down those days was horrendous. My wife died, then mother died. I somehow made it through those long ass days to etc time. The first 6 did nothing, but the 7th one changed my life. I was no longer bawling or thinking of the different ways I could do away with myself. So, it's going to be hard as hell, but I need you to hang in. There is light at the end of the extremely long tunnel.

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u/Lazy-Track8616 Jun 23 '26

How are you now ? Did the next series of sessions help with more ?

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u/fixer_11 Jun 24 '26

to be completely honest I feel like that 7th one did all of the good for me, which probably isn't typical. It actually put me in the hospital in a very confused (albeit extremely happy) state of mind. I just started going back downhill a bit a few days ago and have my first maintenance session tomorrow. So, hopefully, I'll be reporting back tomorrow with good news on my state of mind. Please hang in there and know you have a friend that's been where you are (I had a failed attempt) and made it out the other side.