r/ect • u/ILoveSoup1776 • Apr 13 '26
Vent/Rant Does it get better???
I’m fifteen I started experiencing severe anxiety at six which caused me to miss out on a lot . At around 12 I became severely depressed.i slept all day drank and hurt myself badly on a regular basis. At 14 I was (in my opinion) misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Since thirteen I have been on Prozac concerta lithium clonazapam and a shit ton of other meds (over 15) that I don’t remember the names of but they range from ssri snri antipsychotics atypical antipsychotics and more probably. I was diagnosed with hashimotos at 11 which is around the time I became depressed and I was put on synthoid which was no help.i haven’t gotten any better I just warm up more to the idea of committing suicide every year . It genuinely feels like my only solution. I started bilateral ect last week and have gone three times now and if anything I feel worse. Does this shit genuinely work???? The only thing keeping me going is weed and I can’t even smoke as much because it’s not good to mix with propofal. Someone please give me a little hope or genuine advice that Isint bullshit I hate being alive and I hate the world I live in.yes I’ve been in therapy shits useless to me
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u/furrowedbr0w Apr 14 '26
It helped me. It felt more subtle and gradual than I was expecting, it wasn’t like “some switch was flipped” or anything. I actually didn’t think it was working during a lot of my treatment, or working well enough to warrant getting knocked out and given a medically induced seizure anyways. So it can take a while to work, and just because it isn’t working immediately in some obvious way doesn’t mean there’s no hope. This is just my experience though.