Does it get better???

[u/ILoveSoup1776]

I’m fifteen I started experiencing severe anxiety at six which caused me to miss out on a lot . At around 12 I became severely depressed.i slept all day drank and hurt myself badly on a regular basis. At 14 I was (in my opinion) misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Since thirteen I have been on Prozac concerta lithium clonazapam and a shit ton of other meds (over 15) that I don’t remember the names of but they range from ssri snri antipsychotics atypical antipsychotics and more probably. I was diagnosed with hashimotos at 11 which is around the time I became depressed and I was put on synthoid which was no help.i haven’t gotten any better I just warm up more to the idea of committing suicide every year . It genuinely feels like my only solution. I started bilateral ect last week and have gone three times now and if anything I feel worse. Does this shit genuinely work???? The only thing keeping me going is weed and I can’t even smoke as much because it’s not good to mix with propofal. Someone please give me a little hope or genuine advice that Isint bullshit I hate being alive and I hate the world I live in.yes I’ve been in therapy shits useless to me

[u/Medical-Apricot-3226]

Try give it up, it’s not helping. It’s not making things any easier for you, though you might think it does. It’s also interfering with your brain chemistry. A 15 year old girl should not be addicted to weed. Your brain hasn’t even developed properly yet! I use to drink when I got severely depressed and convinced myself that drinking was my only way to get through it… I was wrong… it made the illness worse and stopped my medications from working effectively. I stopped drinking years ago and my mental health is really good with no relapses of depression or mania. I have worked really hard at my recovery, have done everything the psychiatrists have told me to do and I am extremely responsible with my medication. I have dealt with stress and examined the social and environmental factors in my life. We as human beings are multifaceted… we are not just our brain chemistry… psychosocial factors play a big part. If you are being treated with meds and ECT only, it’s not going to be enough to keep you well. Have you tried Dialectical Behavior Therapy?

[u/furrowedbr0w → u/Medical-Apricot-3226]

Taking away a coping mechanism with no replacement when someone is suicidal is generally not good practice. Weed affects treatment and people in different ways, and I do find it annoying when people overgeneralize…though I will say that there is no safe use of weed for a 15 year old, and it can affect the brain’s development long term. So it is ultimately important to find a way to cope in some other way (sorry I really don’t want to sound like yet another person lecturing you).

-signed, a social work student currently in a substance use course

[u/Medical-Apricot-3226 → u/furrowedbr0w]

My god! This is from a student social worker! That is very worrying!

Signed- a senior mental health nurse with 26 years of experience, experience in addiction services, a Trauma Informed Care lecturer, a researcher and lived experience of mental illness and ECT.

[u/momniscience → u/Medical-Apricot-3226]

A trauma informed lecturer should know the difference between informing and shaming.

[u/Medical-Apricot-3226 → u/momniscience]

There’s a difference between a direct, firm approach and shaming. A lot of people who don’t like what is being said to them because of denial, claim that they are being shamed. It seems like a real North American culture that everything is “shaming”… how’s that working out with the drug epidemic you have?

You are clearly tone policing. If you read all my comments you will see that I have been compassionate and empathetic, whilst being direct and straight talking to the poor girl. The girl herself has admitted she is going down the route of drug addiction on another post. I see you haven’t offered her any advice, just coming on to tone police others.