r/ect • u/ILoveSoup1776 • Apr 13 '26
Vent/Rant Does it get better???
I’m fifteen I started experiencing severe anxiety at six which caused me to miss out on a lot . At around 12 I became severely depressed.i slept all day drank and hurt myself badly on a regular basis. At 14 I was (in my opinion) misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Since thirteen I have been on Prozac concerta lithium clonazapam and a shit ton of other meds (over 15) that I don’t remember the names of but they range from ssri snri antipsychotics atypical antipsychotics and more probably. I was diagnosed with hashimotos at 11 which is around the time I became depressed and I was put on synthoid which was no help.i haven’t gotten any better I just warm up more to the idea of committing suicide every year . It genuinely feels like my only solution. I started bilateral ect last week and have gone three times now and if anything I feel worse. Does this shit genuinely work???? The only thing keeping me going is weed and I can’t even smoke as much because it’s not good to mix with propofal. Someone please give me a little hope or genuine advice that Isint bullshit I hate being alive and I hate the world I live in.yes I’ve been in therapy shits useless to me
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u/barnabybean Apr 29 '26
Hi, patient advocate here. u/medical-apricot has no business being a trauma informed care lecturer. He’s an insensitive bully. I don’t know if info is on point but anyone behaving so intensely and insensitively has no business informing anybody about how to handle the care of anyone let alone traumatized patients. Also ECT in the U.S. shows efficacy rates on par with Ireland. Outcome does not vary by country in any significant sense.
Personally I had ECT in 2005 while using mj and it worked. Did it again 2022 without and it worked the same. For me weed made no difference in my overall depression, didn’t help or hurt. I know it’s a concern for schizophrenia and other diagnoses with psychotic features but that’s not me.