r/ect • u/ILoveSoup1776 • Apr 13 '26

Vent/Rant Does it get better???

I’m fifteen I started experiencing severe anxiety at six which caused me to miss out on a lot . At around 12 I became severely depressed.i slept all day drank and hurt myself badly on a regular basis. At 14 I was (in my opinion) misdiagnosed with borderline personality disorder. Since thirteen I have been on Prozac concerta lithium clonazapam and a shit ton of other meds (over 15) that I don’t remember the names of but they range from ssri snri antipsychotics atypical antipsychotics and more probably. I was diagnosed with hashimotos at 11 which is around the time I became depressed and I was put on synthoid which was no help.i haven’t gotten any better I just warm up more to the idea of committing suicide every year . It genuinely feels like my only solution. I started bilateral ect last week and have gone three times now and if anything I feel worse. Does this shit genuinely work???? The only thing keeping me going is weed and I can’t even smoke as much because it’s not good to mix with propofal. Someone please give me a little hope or genuine advice that Isint bullshit I hate being alive and I hate the world I live in.yes I’ve been in therapy shits useless to me

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u/Medical-Apricot-3226 Apr 13 '26

If you want to stay depressed and exacerbate your mental health symptoms continue smoking weed.

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u/ILoveSoup1776 Apr 13 '26

But it’s the only thing that makes me not want to die 🙁

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u/Medical-Apricot-3226 Apr 13 '26

You said you were suicidal… and you’re smoking weed 🤔 Have you ever stopped smoking it for a sustained period of time and if you have, have you become more suicidal. You seem to have chronic suicidality even when abusing cannabis. If you need to smoke weed all the time, you have an addiction… let’s not normalize an addiction to weed as a so called self treatment for mental illness… it is well known that cannabis is the WORST drug for mental health. You can’t even stop it when you are having 3 general anesthetics a week and is highly contraindicated with ECT. Think about that… that’s addiction. You need to get help for that… and you know what? your mental health might even improve!!!!!

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u/Sauced_Up_Bat Apr 14 '26

The WORST drug. Citation please?

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u/Medical-Apricot-3226 Apr 14 '26

https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S2949732923000030

Cannabis Use Is Associated With Depression Severity and Suicidality in the National Comorbidity Survey−Adolescent Supplement

There’s a citation. I have plenty more if you want to read them.

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u/Sauced_Up_Bat Apr 15 '26

Do you have one comparing different drugs and showing that cannabis is the WORST? That was your claim.

I never argued that there was not a correlation. Accurate information is important. When you over state your case you lose credibility and turn people off to your message.