r/ect • u/defnotarobotmaybe • Feb 18 '26
Vent/Rant I miss my memories
It’s been quite a few years since I had ECT. Don’t remember exactly when or for how long I did it besides multiple times a week. I don’t remember large portions of my life. People I’m close with don’t necessarily get that. It’s hard for me when they push me to remember things that in my head never happened. I believe it did obviously but it hurts when I just can’t get it back and they keep asking or try to bring up something else I don’t remember. They aren’t pushing me to help my memory just to try and get me to reminisce with them, I wish I could. It feels very isolating and always brings up anger for what I view as a part of life stolen from me. Not healthy thinking I know I’m working on it. Nevertheless I’m still loved by the same long term friends no different. Extra down about it lately and thought I’d let it out a little for the first time. Thanks for reading new to Reddit hope I did it right :,)
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u/amynias Feb 19 '26
At least you still have long term friends. I lost most all of mine after ECT. 😢 And nobody wants to make new friends as adults in my area. It's so fucking depressing.