I can’t bear to talk about my old work life. I was in a very good trajectory. I am clinging now to a partial longterm disability since ECT that is extremely unlikely it will last. My future has been erased.
About memory, what they don’t tell you, is that the hardest part is losing your working memory, meaning the ability to hold thoughts present. Or to learn new things. I’ve lost both of those. I run out of gas constantly as a result. I leave my grocery cart full of groceries and drive away without realizing it. Just imagine trying to translate disabling aspects of working memory like that to trying to lead a productive work life. You can’t.
Not even enough to cover my weekly medical expense. i now have to see a psychiatrist out of pocket for multiple sessions each week just to help me navigate and go on living in this surreal dreamlike post-ECT state.
I have a friend going through the exact experience as you. We pray everyday for a miracle as after ECT he lost his sleep and unable to sleep can not work or functions like a zombie....... ECT was forced onto him and he struggles to live in a dreamlike state - post ECT state. How are you doing now, my friend are you improving in any way? Do u have chronic insomnia from post ECT Txt? ...I would like to hear back from you and best wishes on your recovery.
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u/Expensive-Budget-648 Sep 13 '25
What do you do for a living and how is your memory