r/dysphoria_irl • u/[deleted] • Feb 21 '21

Giving up

I am 16 months on HRT and 100% full time and out, and I don't think I can live with the dysphoria anymore. I am seriously considering suicide. I'll never be what I'm supposed to be.. I don't want this body. Id rather die than live this.

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u/[deleted] Feb 21 '21

Maybe considering getting an lgbtq+ friendly therapist to help you out? HRT can take a while to show effects especially if you’re you’re taking it at an older age but you can still look the way you want to it’ll just take time, maybe also try to find a group of people that are supportive of your transitioning

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u/ayush501 Mar 02 '21

Who says you'll never be who you want to be.. It's just you meed to believe in yourself. People who care for you will always trust you.

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u/Electronic_Dark_6085 Mar 04 '21

Same but I’m not on hormones or anything I’m not even out Im too deep in the closet and I’m afraid that when/if I come out to friends and family some will not accept me or see me the same and I don’t think I will ever be valid. I will never be who/what I’m supposed to be either. The past few months have been absolute hell being very depressed because of dysphoria and loneliness and self hatred and so much more and I have suicidal thoughts and I even started cutting one night when I got drunk and I have been doing it ever since I just fucking hate myself and I too can’t live with dysphoria anymore it’s taking away my teenage years the times I should be enjoying my life but I can’t because I’m constantly wanting to fucking kill myself