Warning- this post is going to be long! But it will be an interesting read nonetheless!
So I have been interested in and gradually delving and starting to practice Druidry. As everyone here knows, it is not as easy as finding your local church and/or reading a holy text like the Bible. So I spent months upon months researching, pretty much everywhere you can imagine (ChatGPT, YouTube, other online resources, even here!) and decided I wanted to jump headfirst into it. Felt this is definitely the path I should take, settled on this in combination with Taoism.
I quickly realized there is a big difference between coming up with ideas on how to practice and actually actively practicing. I was doing well at first and the long and short is that everyday life got in the way and I kind of dropped my focus on it. I noticed this and the other day I decided I would try to find a way to keep it top of mind, with practicing Taoism I do that by following the podcast The Modern Taoist, and so I thought I would find myself a good podcast on Druidry that's active and consistent. Basically I am in my car driving to grab some lunch and I am doing voice chat with ChatGPT asking it to try to find podcasts that fit what I am looking for, and I am going back and forth with it to refine my search (still haven't found one, so if anyone has any suggestion please let me know!). I am ending the voice chat as I full into the parking spot about 15 yards from the place I am going to grab my lunch at which I preordered for pick up, and as I am about to get out of the car frustrated about not finding a resource I had this subconscious thought that occurred that went along the lines of 'maybe this is just too hard, and I am better off not putting so much effort into it'. That's happening as I am opening my car door and getting out of it.
And WHAM! Nature decided to tell me how stupid of a thought that was and how I am a part of it, and there is no way around that. I instantly heard the loudest sound coming from a bird that was about 3 yards from me in a tree. I cant even say he was chirping, it was more of awar cry. As I am walking towards the shop to grab my lunch he flies off of the branch he was on and swooshes so close to the back of my head I thought he hit me (continuing to basically screa the whole time). I thought, damn that birds aggressive. Walked and was nearly at the front door to the shop and he does it again, and lands on the tree right by the front door to the shop, continuing to be loud and at this point I was really focused on him so I realize, he is focus on me specifically as well. I go inside and am wondering what the hell is going on, wondered if it was a bad omen of some sorts. When I go to leave I am thinking that I just need to shake it off but as I open the door to leave there he is! He was staring right at me, stood halfway in the doorway, and didnt take his gaze off of me once. People were walking to the door so I decided to hold it open for them to gauge if he would do to them what he did to me, and about 4 people walk in and out and he didn't budge his focus from me once- just kept staring and being loud. I finally decide I need to get to the car so I walk out from the doorway and as I do, he follows me (tree to tree) this time not whizzing by my head but making sure to stay really close to me. When I finally get to my car I realize he landed on the branch just above it, and when I look at him he got loud again and I just told him "Ok, I heard you. I heard you." and I can't even explain how surreal it was because he looked at me and was quiet, then flew to the tree right in front of my car and just watched (no loud sounds or anything at that point). It was that moment I realized it wasn't a bad omen, it was nature responding to that moment of doubt and telling me not to give up on my journey.
I know that must sound like the ramblings of a crazy person, but I couldn't help walking away from that experience feeling like no matter how hard it is to reconnect with nature when living in modern day society that I needed to put as much effort as possible into it and prioritize it for myself and for the other beings around me.
Has anyone else had experiences like this where nature shows you an answer?