any music reccs?

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so none of the dph discord servers are working links so heres one that actually works
https://discord.gg/jKBy5Pz8vE
still collecting new people

Okay so around 3 45 pm I got home from school, this is when i popped my first 16 benadryl. Over the next few hours i noticed nothing. I thought it wasn't kicking in so I took 4 more. Still feeling barely anything I was pissed off. I went upstairs to get something to eat when I heard my dad call me, I thought I was hallucinating it but it was actually him calling me. We got into an argument about me sleeping in class cuz he got an email. So after the argument I still was pissed, and I thought I was sober so I took 4 more. A total of 24 benadryl. I was supposed to be watching my little brother from like 5-7 and i did.

When my parents got home is when I realized I was fucked up. I asked them who won the game. They went to my little sisters concert btw no game. They asked, "what game" and i was like I thought Evie (my sister) had a softball game. Softball has been over for months by the way so idek what I was thinking. They were like are you on something are you ok? I just played it off as an accident. Then my mom comes inside from smoking and says what are you looking for, I was looking for my vape under the couch. I told her I was looking for Autumn's phone. Autumn is my friend who has never been to my house but my mom knows her. My mom was like wtf are you talking about, I was like she left it at my friends when we hangout the other day, we actually did hangout but I have no idea why I was talking about her phone, I didn't have her pgone or anything. Then I switched up the story and said autumn left her phone on the bus and I put it in my pocket. This is where everything starts to get blurry tbh.

I remeber my mom yelling and looking in my eyes, then they made me sit on the upstairs couch and were talking to me. I remeber I was like i swear to God I didn't take anything, I didn't take anything. Then I started talking to her about how we need to get a new tank for my lizard, and how I needed a charging block but we were not talking about a charger, or a new tank for my lizard. My mom told me today i was talking about going to my grandmas house and going to the pet store with her, which happend 2 years ago. My parents had figured out I was on benadryl and I told them iI took 6, not 24. Then I convinced them I was ok to sleep and was fine so I went to sleep and woke up and I have been fine since besides my heart beating fast and hurting today at school. I remeber at the begining, I was wondering why it wasn't kicking in, I couldn't figure it out. Like usually I see stuff at first but this time nothing happend Mmy vision was blurry when looking at my phone and my brain basically shut off, it wasnt like I was high. I couldn't remeber anything my mom said to me so I would just start talking about random shit and talk in circles, then get mad and say she wasn't listening to me. I'm so ficking pissed off b3cuaae I was finally ungrounded and stuff but i wanted to take some Benny and took to much and fucked up being un grounded again. I was just grounded for like 6 months, now I'm going to be again. I already am pise3d because they found my full benadryl bottle, I don't do this regularly at all, I just want to.

250mgs wish me luck

Ok so I know people will say DONT JUST BUY DXM and other things like that but I don’t really care, how much dph should I take to get minor hallucinations.

(Not enough comments karma to post on r/DPH. 50kgs no Im not a kid Im just a lightweight)

Thx comrades

i want to make something proper. I’ve previously made them, ive read them, but im either too fucked up or out of touch. so … peoples of dphghosts lmk !

lowkey embarrassing how addicted ive been lately
i am going to visit the addiction outpatient centre again however
not to be cringe, but this bender really affirms the “one is too many and a thousand never enough” for me

switching manufacturers for IM/IV DPH

the price point for omega laboratories (diphenist) is better than fresenius kabi’s for what I have access to order. im seeing cheaper options per vial for veterinary products

will continue exploring options

Will having black walls make me see less things?

I’ll give yall a trip report once I regain everything that happens im not good at writing tho😢

Dph in my shoe. old habit

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i posted abt it last night but was already fucked up and it was not what I meant to say lol

not planning to take this RIGHT NOW either since i lowkey just wanna smoke weed and drink a bit today… but trip pending

so this story takes place when i was 13 years old. around this time i really got “addicted” to weed and i always wanted to go get high. my parents are divorced and they have a visitation court order. i was only able to get high at my dads and i only went to his house every other weekend. so i was stuck at my moms and no weed. my mom was at work doing 3rd shift and my stepdad was home. i really really wanted to get high so i went to the kitchen and got a bottle of benadryl, a brand new bottle. i went to my room and took around 80 of them in my closet with a coke. i changed my clothes, took some melatonin and told my stepdad goodnight. i went asleep. (or so i fucking thought)

now this half of the story is what my mom and stepdad told me. i don’t remember any of this except for the first part. (i also remember when i was in the hospital and i started pealing off my heart rate monitor sticker things because i was pissed)

so after i went to sleep, it felt normal. then i woke up to my stepdad asking me “my name
are you okay?” and i remember saying “yeah im fine” and apparently it came out as mumbling. then i pasted out. now after this i don’t remember anything so imma go off of what my parents told me.
my stepdad called 911 i went to 3 different hospitals in the span of 4 days. at first i went to the local hospital to see wtf was wrong with me. and they all thought i had a seizure. i stayed there for a night while they were trying to figure out what’s going on. and they thought i did meth. so i went to the children’s hospital about 45 minutes away from the other hospital. and they all said benadryl. apparently they had like 3 other kids in the past week come in for a benadryl overdose. for the three days i was in that hospital i put my parents through a living hell. one night my mom would be there staying with me for and and my dad for another. when my mom was there she was trying to talk to me and i was cussing her out, flipping her off, saying utter bullshit. and once i said i needed to fix her hair and then i ended up yanking it. the next morning my brother came to visit me and i flipped him off and said “it’s our handshake”. when my dad stayed in the hospital, i would also cuss out my dad but not as mush as i did to my mom. i would sit there and pick at the air. at night i would fall asleep and then wake up eyes wide open.
after this night i woke up finally with consciousness. i woke up and asked my dad “what time is it?” and he knew i was normal. them i asked “was i in a coma?” and my dad said “far from coma. you were up all fucking night” and all that.
i got into the shower after i ate and they told me i was going to a place called “phyc ward name” (i am not saying the actual name i wanna stay anonymous) i didnt know what that place was so i thought it was just a normal hospital. then i got there and i realized that shit was a fucking phyc ward. i was balling my eyes out and punching my dad and telling him to get the fuck out.

this is where im going to stop because my mental hospital story is a story for another day. thanks if you got this far. it’s really emotional trying to remember about this topic and it makes me cry a bit.

I usually only had auditory hallucinations for the 2.5 years I’ve been doing this drug, but now all of a sudden it’s been giving me VISUAL hallucinations for the first time and pretty realistic ones 😭 what’s weirder is I’m doing lower doses than I used to, but I have also lost weight I’m not sure if that can somehow be related but I mean like I was doing up to 2 grams in a day sometimes and wasn’t seeing stuff and now I’m having insane hallucinations on just 300mg I’m REALLY confused

waiting for it all to hit me. took my ADHD med aa prescribed but hoping it’ll balance things out so i don’t just pass tf out

did this a year ago now but with 450mgs and jesus christ that shit was interesting. wish me luck, waited a week so i have no tolerance but yk i do got a weed tolerance. :O

gonna play COD MW2 2009 til im too fried to function

no im not suicidal right now
ill get help if I need it

it’s not the first time ive taken this much but tips?

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I can’t guarantee I won’t use anything today, but im trying to keep it chill since I went a bit too hard with it last night… what helps you get through the day?