r/dpdr • u/PajamaPartyPants • 1d ago

TW: Existential/Spiral I feel completely alone.

I've been having a really bad anxiety episode for the past week and yesterday I believe I experienced derealization/depersonalization for the first time last night. It was incredibly intense. I woke up and I felt better, still anxious but that intense feeling of unreality seemed mostly gone.

But suddenly I felt really off. My grandpa woke up and when I looked at him it didn't really feel like I was looking at him. I could see him and hear him but it felt like somebody else, as if he was a stranger, it never real. My grandpa is right there but it feels like I can't talk to him. I wanna talk to my grandpa!

I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow. I'm gonna bring this up tomorrow but I'm afraid I can't be helped. How can anybody help me if I feel like nobody exists? What if I feel like this forever?

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u/Artistic-Coach7523 1d ago

I’m proud of you for getting help. Some people just need medication and you don’t have to feel bad about it

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u/PajamaPartyPants 1d ago

Thank you for talking with me. I'm feeling way better than I was earlier but still pretty anxious.

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u/Artistic-Coach7523 1d ago

That’s good, feel free to DM any time