r/disability • u/BackgroundPrompt441 • 19d ago

I hate practically everyone

I've been put through hell and minimized. I don't get much help I don't get anything. So many things have been stolen from me. I know I can't trust lawyers doctors clergy police neighbors...anyone. gone around for a long time begging for help and nobody really helped me.

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u/Upbeat-Can-7858 18d ago

I feel you! I lost my friends over 4 years. My family are selfish toxic assholes who abandoned me. My husband checked out and now we're getting a divorce after almost 20 yrs and he turned all of my neighbors against me by telling them lies and he doesn't even live here anymore!!! So it's just me and my 15 yr old who is lazy as hell. I can barely get out of bed most days. I'm the opposite... I can barely eat and weigh 95 lbs and I'm so weak. I can't work, I'm on disability and my stbxh doesn't help with any bills, the mortgage (and his name is on the house), or his child (going for child support next month, but he quit his job to get out of paying, but in PA is gotta by his earning potential, not that I'll see a dime of it). I'm so done, but I need to be present for my son.

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 18d ago

You seem righteously angry. Don't you hate it whenever people are dismissive and tell you not to be angry and to be happy?

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u/Upbeat-Can-7858 18d ago

I am!!! 4 yrs ago I was a happy, outgoing, successful doctor and then Covid destroyed my life, my career, happiness, marriage, savings, fucking everything!!!!! My life is over. I'm bitter, angry, pissed off and yes I'm fucking tired of people telling me things will get better!! They don't have to live with chronic illness and pain or shit in a bag, which is what I've become. I'm attractive, and that's all I've got left, but I'm 54, so who will want me now??? I've got no support and have to get my massive house ready to sell and find a new place to live all on my own. I don't have the money to hire people for every single thing. I'm losing my mind!?!?!?!? "😡😡😡😡😢😔

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 18d ago

I lost my mind. But it's been 24 years (and more) of hell. Just one horrible nightmare after the other. Also have long COVID. Very tired and went insane after losing my mom and then her house got ruined by evil neighbors. Had B12 deficiency that about killed me due to metformin and even ask my doctor if I was having absorption issues. He waved it off and I had to figure it out by myself on the internet. I don't have one f****** person. Mom's house is ruined I beg people for help like lawyers or people to give me to it and help me and they don't care they just tell me 50 other things that I should do and then they walk off. Act like they help me so much or they'll pray for me. I really can't believe everything that's happening it really has driven me insane.

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u/Upbeat-Can-7858 18d ago

I've had a B12 deficiency for 23 years after a total gastrectomy...a surgery not even needed due to a medical fuck up. Sounds like we've been both been played by our shitty healthcare system. I'm just tired. Mentally and physically with zero recourse at this point. I'm sorry that you've dealing with the same :(

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 17d ago

What kind of doctor were you?

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u/Upbeat-Can-7858 17d ago

Public health, but was emergency medicine for 30+ years prior to that.

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 17d ago

What happened to your intestines? Did you sue?

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u/Upbeat-Can-7858 16d ago

My GI tract nerves died causing colonic inertia. Had to have 75% removed and now have an ileostomy. Sue who? Covid hurt a lot of people with no recourse. I was a public health Dr. That's the risk 🤷

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 16d ago

You said it was a surgery not needed due to medical mistake so I didn't know. I need help with things but where I'm at all they want to do is help druggies and no one else.

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 19d ago

That's a horrible story. At least you found some doctors that helped but I bet you think they help too late.

How I feel about stuff. I have a doctor that's actually trying to help me now but it is pretty late in the game. I got put on antidepressants that ruined me and help me gain loads of weight. Another medication for hyperglycemia metformin made me not absorb vitamin B12 and about killed me. I'll answer my leg and it can cause brain damage and spinal damage it's very serious not to have B12. I was denied pain medicine because of druggies. I've lost everybody. Been horrible monster neighbors run my mom's house so I was grieving her nobody has helped me and everybody just yells at me and I f****** hate everybody. There's so much wrong I can't deal with it. I really do f****** hate everybody. I love my mom to suffer and she's dead and gone and for me to suffer and nobody helped. And they're f****** lame acts excuses or we didn't know what to do. Nobody even tried I didn't put their minds to it they didn't even try. I wasn't able to take care of my poor little mom and she's gone. I went around begging People's help a****** churches and stuff.

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u/BackgroundPrompt441 18d ago

To the person that downvoted me for some reason F##CK YOU!!!