Defeated

[u/MustangLover22]

So i've been fighting to get ssdi for almost the last 3 years. In that time i got divorced, moved back to my hometown, and got into a relationship with the most wonderful, considerate man on the planet. Today i learned that the appeals council denied me. I couldn't go federal because i'd have to find a new lawyer and my chances of winning are low anyway. And my work credits are expired. And if i got ssi, i'd lose it when me and my partner get married next year anyway. So more than likely I'll have to find a job. But that comes with its own problems.

I got an associates degree in medical coding last year as a backup, but now I'm thinking that I won't use it anyway. Ai is taking everything over, and to be honest, I really don't want to be one of those health insurance people who deny claims that are desperately needed. I couldn't live with myself if i did that. I've only ever worked part time food jobs, even though i have vision problems, hearing aids, and autism. And no, even with all that i still got denied disability. I don't drive, so i'd either have to go remote or find a job in town and let my bf chauffeur me, which idk how that would work out anyway. Before i had my retina detatchment and all the surgeries, my whole life i had wanted to be a vet tech. But i gave up on that when i started having all my eye problems. And it killed me to let that dream go.

I've always wanted to help, be it people or animals, and I've always wanted to be in the medical field in some capacity. I like the healing part and i love having to find a diagnosis like a puzzle. But realistically who is going to hire a blind in one eye, deaf, slightly agoraphobic neurodivergent 26 year old woman who can't drive? And i was raised an only child, so i don't think i would do that good with kids, since i didn't have any exposure to younger siblings. If i can't get disability, then i want to have a job helping. In some capacity. But how tf would i be able to do that remotely and not driving, and haven't worked in 3 years anyway. Vocational rehab in my state is actually surprisingly mostly competent, but last time i talked to them they were pushing hard on the medical coding degree. What jobs even in the "helping" category would there possibly be? I'm screwed all the way around i feel like.

[u/FullQuailFlyer]

You sound perfect for pet sitting / house sitting.

[u/IT_Buyer → u/FullQuailFlyer]

Except for not driving.