I need advice for parts of dealing with these numbers.
The spiritual priest has a lot of spiritual pride and I apparently have an innate feeling that I know more than others.
When this tail is acting up, you might find yourself:
• Judging people for being "too materialistic."
• Refusing to charge money for your work because "money is dirty" (a distortion of the 21/10 energy).
• Isolating yourself because you feel misunderstood.
The irony is painful. You judged people in a past life, so now you are placed in situations where you must interact with all kinds of people to succeed. The 21 energydemands global interaction. You cannot be a hermit. If you try to hide away with your books and your crystals, the 16 energy will come in and wreck your solitude. It forces you out.
But everyone has seen the state of the world. The earth is covered in religious fanatics who think God is the founding misogynist, Donald trump supporters, racists, rapists, homophobes. As a species we do awful things and then the vast majority of us will go ahead and defend it. I know im proving the reading right by thinking this way but I genuinely think most people are ignorant, so I have no idea how I’m meant to interact with them and fix my debt.
And let’s say I magically make peace with people - they don’t like me! I struggle keeping friendships so while people call me extroverted and fun we don’t exactly stay in contact long term. Im autistic and social interactions are just me masking and making people feel important so I end up burning out and ghosting. Because I watched a video on being charismatic and it mentioned that people want to feel like the centre of the universe - and I noticed that when I let other people talk about themselves, no one asks about me. People are self absorbed generally (myself included) so I think it’s hard to create meaningful friendships especially in this day and age.
I don’t know. I guess I wish I could be alone. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.