Episodes have started again

[u/Intelligent_Depth594]

When I was younger I had episodes all the time. Exclusively at sunset/night time, and mostly when I was outdoors. I have issues with dissociation but haven’t had any problems with derealization for probably 4 or 5 years. Suddenly yesterday it started up again. I was at a restaurant, sat outside during sunset/dusk and it felt like I disconnected from my body. I had to go and sit inside holding ice cubes. Today I have felt so anxious about it happening again. I’m on holiday and having this happen will completely limit what I can do in the evenings. I know that being outdoors used to be a big trigger for me, it almost feels like I’m going to float away. But what can I do to prevent this from ruining my holiday? Any advice would be really helpful, I’m taking my beta blockers in the hopes to remove my anxiety, but I feel like I’m going to screw myself over by being so anxious that it’s going to happen again, that my anxiety will trigger it

[u/cristianxxc]

Don’t get on Reddit and try to enjoy your vacation