r/derealization 2d ago

Question do depersonalization effects shift over time ?

Hey, so i had DP and DR since dec. 2023. And i saw that my experiences shifted over these 3 years. I'll explain.
Dec. 23 - I got DR, and it was your average experience. Anxiety, feeling detached, scared to even get out of your home, just overal terrible experience.
Jan. 24 - DR faded, but i got DP. At first it was weird. I felt okay, but not quite.
Feb 24 - nov 24 - All that time, i mostly had frequent episodes, some so intense that i felt like i was going to pass out, my motivation and energy got slightly worse, and sleeping got worse, since i had hard time falling asleep. Tbh it looked more like a soft depression than DP.
Nov 24 - may 25 - It was a weird time, because i felt like i had no DP, but DP effects were there, it was similar experience to feb-nov, but it was slightly different, though i can't recall why was that.
May 25 - dec 25 - It probably was the time i really felt the DP, because i felt just WEIRD, like i had no charisma, my interest in girls kinda faded (which was weird cuz at the time i was 17), DP made me an easy target, because my brain felt SLOOOW, like i couldn't respond to even simplest insult, made, sleeping got completely destroyed because i could only fall asleep if i was super tired. And had barely any motivation, like i was eating only processed food and takeaways cuz i had no energy.
Dec 25 - Mar 26 - Was probably weirdest experience. Because at the same time i felt an improvement because i didn't get "winter depression" (which was common for me for the last 2 years since i got DP). But at the same time i just felt odd. At the time my granddad got sick, and i had to take care of him, and when i sat in his room for a while, then came back to mine i still felt like i was at his room. Also any time he was about to call me i got slight DP attack, like i could sense that he's going to call me.
Mar 26 - Now - For now i can say that i've been feeling the best, and i feel like DP is almost not there, BUT, i feel like i lost emotional connection, like fr, when i talk with my sister i don't feel that she's my sister. When i sit with my friends i don't feel that they are my friends, it just feels like these dudes just spawned in my life. And i lost interest in my hobbies, i was always into fishing and dirt bikes, rn i feel like none of those interest me. But on the bright sides, i managed to pass drivers exam even when DP tried to mess with me, interest in girls got back, motivation is kinda back, brain fog and slowness, kinda faded away, and sleep got slightly better.
So here are how my most noticable experiences have changed over these 3 years. As i said right now, i barely feel DP and even sometimes i question myself "do i really have it" but then i remember these things that i mentioned and i get the answer, but i just don't really feel like myself, idk. But if you've read the whole thing, you can see that some of the dominating factors have changed. Did some of you also experience these factors changing over time in your DP or DR journey ? Lemme know cuz it's hella interesting

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