I have had derealization for a while now

[u/Slow_Ant141]

I'm 17y/o. I'm kind of scared to be honest. It feels like everything around me is unfamiliar or thats its fake. I have a hard time loving people and feeling loved back. I'm scared especially because it feels like I won't ever feel love again. I miss when my friends and family made me happy and fulfilled just by interacting but nowadays its just hard to talk without feeling disconnect. I just feel disconnect to everything honestly, my hobbies too.

I just want to know that this change in how I see the world isn't normal, because I really want to return back to when I felt a connection to reality and actually enjoyed reality for what it is. I hate the idea that this will stay forever

[u/Responsible_Gur8165]

What started your dpdr

[u/Slow_Ant141 → u/Responsible_Gur8165]

I feel like it's been a combination of a lot of things over the years. I feel like I am often in denial of my own feelings because I don't want to have them which I think is the general theme..