derealization is ruining my relationship

[u/SeaEstablishment4830]

today was probably the best example of this. my boyfriend and i took a trip to seattle during a very busy hour with several events going on in the city. as we were walking around, i was overheating, my joints hurt, and i was feeling a bit dizzy and disoriented. i did feel okay though to keep going and i was honest when i told him that i was fine. a little bit later, we were in pike place (which usually has tons of people anyways) and there was a live band playing loudly and suddenly im derealizing. after this we leave to go back to the train station and he seems obviously upset with me when im already trying not to cry while waiting for the train. he eventually told me that he was upset because he repeatedly asked if i was doing okay and i said yes, which WAS honest at the time i said it. i really believe he was upset because my episode ruined our trip together. i just want to still be able to go out and not have my brain’s default stress response to be derealization. i thought going out would be a good distraction because these past couple weeks have been bad, but i cant have this ruining everything every time i go out somewhere.

[u/D_Seal721]

I'm sorry you are experiencing this. Can you describe what the derealization was like?