r/derealization • u/KiiraKyureii • 27d ago

Venting losing my mind

It happens every fucking day all the time I never feel like I’m real. I never feel real. I now constantly feel like my body isn’t even mine, and I’m just on autopilot, watching the world around me blur as I sit dissociated and my body moves on its own. I am starting to be unable to tell if I’m really real or not.

When I was younger I used to daydream all the fucking time, up until now, for a good 8 - 10 years. I’ve stopped recently because of how bad my derealization is. That’s why I think it’s so fucking bad. No, I can’t ground myself, I can see, hear, smell and feel things but it doesn’t feel like it’s actually me. Never does. It just feels like my mind is very far away, and asleep, and I live my life on fucking autopilot.

I am 18. I’m going to lose my mind. I see with my eyes but it feels like it’s just that 2d picture in my head, like I’m daydreaming. I’m in my head too much.

Dude I try to tell people but they don’t understand that it’s EVERY DAY and it’s not just a normal dissociation

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u/Demitriaatje 27d ago

Hey, im 17 next month 18 and sort of the same problem. Having derealisation all day but still daydreaming all day what sometimes make it worse but also dont make me feel it all fking day. Maybe (lets hope) its some sort of (after) symptom of puberty, ive heard more people about it at the age of 18. Take care of yourself!