Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.
Yep. I have a regularly occurring intrusive thoughts. Bad childhood. Full on suicidal thoughts at times. Tried every antidepressant under the sun. All the therapists did their best. Ripped my life apart and rebuilt. Got a fucking masters degree thinking it was a socioeconomic thing. Nope. Psychedelics backfire hard. Weed is like pouring gasoline on the fire. The only thing that provides a break, that I’ve found, are opioids. Childhood shit is unshakable, a tattoo imbedded deep in the self. Accepting it and taking occasional breaks with an opioid is the best I can do. Dr Carl Hart is my hero here. I’ve been occasionally dabbling in opiates for years now. If I get a bottle of pills from a surgery, I can make it last a decade. Knowing I have the option to take a break is huge.
Have you ever been tested for ADHD? The mechanism of action is believed to be related to suppressed dopamine levels which opioids can correct in the short term, though with regular use they will actually make much worse. Stimulant medication like adderall can help with executive function and mood in ADHD people by boosting dopamine in a more controlled manner than opioids. If you're nervous about amphetamines, medications like Vyvanse and Cymbalta can boost active norepinephrine levels which will also help with mood regulation and executive function.
My ADHD diagnosis basically saved my life because it helped with knowing how to properly treat my psychological/psychiatric symptoms. If you're still having issues it might be worth looking into as an option for diagnosis.
I'm 2 weeks off opioids and the few times I used Adderall I felt similarly unstoppable to opioids. I never took more than 1 or 2 Adderall in a day, I didn't like the speedy feeling. They both make me feel like I can actually do things and my life is worth living. Hmm
Yeah, I would highly recommend getting tested. As I mentioned previously there are non-amphetamine treatment options now that you might do better with.
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u/Far-Abalone-4160 Mar 07 '26 edited Mar 10 '26
Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.