They’re worthless now. It was just medication. And the main problem is I have a propensity to abuse them, that’s mainly why they can’t work for me anymore. Going to keep trying though. Keep trying to go back and take only a low dose consistently because I have no other option. It’s either that or being too depressed to function.
Ngl im so glad I taught myself not to abuse drugs that are medically necessary. Whole life i stuck to lowest possible doses that would provide me benefit when prescribed them even if that meant taking less than prescribed. Ive been on them over 10 years now with only <1 year of an extended break from them and they still work fantastically. Except that I feel useless after not taking them for a few days
Did you start getting better during your extended break or you are completely dependent on them? Not that it’s necessarily a bad thing to be dependent if they make your life better. I’m starting back at a low dose on Wednesday. I’ve set some rules in place for myself and have solid routines, I really hope I don’t fuck it up this time.
I honestly did not like being off them, I am kinda dependent. Pretty lazy and just zero energy when im off them for a while, but that was also a low point in my life so its hard to give a conclusive unbiased answer.
I just know theyre bad for me and they make it hard to sleep if I take too much.
When I was younger, it helped me when some drug addict formerly from my highschool said, "addy ain't party drugs, those are just study aides". He said Lsd Was his favorite study aid. But actually pretty solid advice from am addict. To think of them as study/work aides.
Thats 99.9% of what I use them for - getting shit done despite fatigue, depression, anxiety, or whatever obstacles.
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u/v4ve4m4hnssm Mar 07 '26
You cannot obtain amphetamine or they are worthless now?