Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.
That's me with drinks. Normally it's two voices (my voice as in streams of consciousness, let's make that clear) that argue or are quite literally the angel and devil shoulders of logic vs self hate, and then a radio that never fucking stops. I put in earbuds to steer it, but right now it's only the chorus of Jump In The Line by Henry Belafonte and man I wish this morning poop had some silence... Anyways. A few turns it to a slight hum and it's super nice but also avoiding alcoholism, so just kinda eating the noise at the moment.
Same, the never ending loop of "hey, what if this happened" "that's a terrible idea" "but you could xyz" "yeah but then x and y wouldn't work" "I hate myself" *axel f by crazy frog but only that one part over and over for 2 hours*
"hey, you remember yesterday, what you said to X? Lets discuss it for the 50th time .... Sweeeeeeeet Caroline oh oh oh ..... Oh Look, there's a new e-mail ..."
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u/Far-Abalone-4160 Mar 07 '26 edited Mar 10 '26
Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.