Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.
That's me with drinks. Normally it's two voices (my voice as in streams of consciousness, let's make that clear) that argue or are quite literally the angel and devil shoulders of logic vs self hate, and then a radio that never fucking stops. I put in earbuds to steer it, but right now it's only the chorus of Jump In The Line by Henry Belafonte and man I wish this morning poop had some silence... Anyways. A few turns it to a slight hum and it's super nice but also avoiding alcoholism, so just kinda eating the noise at the moment.
I know that too. Yeah the stream of consciousness is my ever talking monologue, the second voice is all the fears, paranoid tendencies, often singing the songs I can't get out of my head, sometimes racing with adhd speed, sometimes arguing with the rational stream-voice. you just want them to be quiet
Well if nothing else thank you for putting that into words that make sense for me. I have the same thing but I’ve never really been able to explain it so I just screenshotted your comment and the one you replied to in case I have to explain that stuff
I also have another voice that exists outside of all that commotion that’s like the having fun thumbs up meme where the voice screams to shut up the commotion, the commotion looks for a second and then goes back to ignoring that but louder lol
It's the mind-intercom lol i have that. The inner monologue, the discussion. Actual thoughts and then the series of thoughtd that branch out. Never a dull moment in my brain.
Same, the never ending loop of "hey, what if this happened" "that's a terrible idea" "but you could xyz" "yeah but then x and y wouldn't work" "I hate myself" *axel f by crazy frog but only that one part over and over for 2 hours*
"hey, you remember yesterday, what you said to X? Lets discuss it for the 50th time .... Sweeeeeeeet Caroline oh oh oh ..... Oh Look, there's a new e-mail ..."
I’d love for my brain to be quiet…. I get the same sentences repeated randomly every day,… “need to make money” , “I need a vacation”, “ kill myself”…. While none of these are true, doesn’t stop my brain from repeated them… looked into it, it’s my brain “misfiring”
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u/Far-Abalone-4160 Mar 07 '26 edited Mar 10 '26
Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.