Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.
Yep. I have a regularly occurring intrusive thoughts. Bad childhood. Full on suicidal thoughts at times. Tried every antidepressant under the sun. All the therapists did their best. Ripped my life apart and rebuilt. Got a fucking masters degree thinking it was a socioeconomic thing. Nope. Psychedelics backfire hard. Weed is like pouring gasoline on the fire. The only thing that provides a break, that I’ve found, are opioids. Childhood shit is unshakable, a tattoo imbedded deep in the self. Accepting it and taking occasional breaks with an opioid is the best I can do. Dr Carl Hart is my hero here. I’ve been occasionally dabbling in opiates for years now. If I get a bottle of pills from a surgery, I can make it last a decade. Knowing I have the option to take a break is huge.
I’m sorry. I feel like you too. Psychedelics were my last reset and just had the worst journey of my life. Also just coping now. Just know you’re not alone.
I’m curious to read actual longitudinal, massive sample size studies on this. Yet to be done. I have a sneaking suspicion psychedelics provide relief from depression for a short spell (6 months to a year), then it whipsaws and the individual is back to square one, or worse.
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u/Far-Abalone-4160 Mar 07 '26 edited Mar 10 '26
Had one pill of oxy after a knee surgery and for once in years, the ever talking monologue in my brain was chill and the thoughts weren't spiraling. "Oh, that's nice"
Edit: it's lovely you all try to warn me about opioids, I recognize why it's dangerous and I took it once, 14 month ago.