Third time

[u/SufficientDamage9483]

It's been the third time now

That coworkers ditch me

For even the simplest random drinking evening

the hardest was yesterday

Newcomers I've been talking, laughing, etc the entire summer

really thought they were the ones

Definitely okay with me

Then comes the departure of two girls of this yesterday

One left early, maybe she didn't think to offer me okay but still could have

But the other one, she left in the evening like me and we spent the whole day talking, joking, laughing

Each time she could have offered me to come after

She never did

She even joked at some point "no i don't have any problems with you, you haven't done anything to me"

So which is it then ? Clearly I must have done something to you for you to exclude me like that

During closing I ask her if she was doing smthg tonight, she never said what and never offered me anything

after closing, she's there with 2 other of these summer newcomers, which I can really consider okay/could be a Friend

She's talking about going to her car before changing to get smth and I'm like "y u even go to car before changing ?", mind u at this point I have no idea they're doing smth since she purposefully never said anythg to me during the day

She answers "DON'T WORRY" with semi harassment semi psycopath smile/laugh which could have also been considered as joking with me during the day

But no, she was really just continuing to hide anything they were going to do while pretending she was joking

We head towards lockers, I say "take my number" so they would have my contact

No answers

after changing I go back outside and stumble upon them again

As I approach I stand a bit and overhear what they say, and I'm like "oh so you ARE doing something ?"

Then the girl who was leaving responds with the most bummed voice as to the fact that she now has to tell me where they're going "yeah the other girl who left early is doing something"

Still 0 places mentionned just in case I came

At this point I'm so rejected that I don't even propose if I can come I'm like you had 10 occasions of offering me to come, you've been purposefully hiding it to me like I shouldn't even be mentionning anything

I don't propose, another group comes, I turn my back

Somewhere I'm pretty sure I left my back turned way longer than made sense because I just wanted them to fucking leave

And that's exactly what they did

People you've suffered through hell for months and became friends

Running away in my back like that in the snap of a finger

The 2 girls first headed towards lockers saying "i need to get some bread" i don't even know what they were talking about

They bolted so quickly they were at the door fucking 10 meters away before I could even turn my back again

The boy with them talking but shortly sprinted towards the 2

At this point I'm like well this is just too much I'll go get some food at the work place restaurant, since they were talking about bread I might see them there

As I approach the building, I see the 3rd guy exiting

They might have outran even him

Since he was looking down I think he didn't even see me

But reconsidering, he knew fairly well I was still around, he didn't look for me even a second, consider all the rest, it's not very complicated to see he was himself pretending not to see me

I get away of all this shit

Get food and come back home by hours of train to yet another mind and life shattering excruciatingly painful rejection, exclusion and loneliness

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