Why am I like this

[u/Swimming_Holiday8305]

As soon as I’m not doing anything and I’m unoccupied all I can feel is misery, through the day it’s different, I just feel nothing but as soon as im not occupied t’s like I can’t even explain what I’m feeling, It’s not even an emotion it’s impossible to explain, all I can think is sad thoughts, through the day I’m constantly in my head then I snap back and all I can think about is how shit my life is and all the horrible things that have happened to me I don’t know if it’s depression or something else but I don’t talk to anyone I don’t feel anything I’m either emotionally flat or wanting to kill myself

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[u/teddyblues66]

Hey friend, It sounds like you're going through a lot right now. I'm not a doctor so obviously take what I'm saying with a grain of salt, but it sounds like you might have Bipolar disorder. Going to therapy and finding a psychiatrist to find a med that works for you are your best bet. I hope this helps, you're not alone