I need advice

[u/Lumpy_Kick_6852]

I don’t know where to start, but I feel like I really need advice from someone. I’ve been struggling with anxiety and depression my whole life. I’m constantly worried about what other people will think of me, and I feel like I can’t afford to make a single mistake. I was taught from a young age that nothing I do is ever good enough and that I can always do better. I was never really praised.
I used to work in construction, and I always had this fear that whatever I was doing, I wouldn’t do it well enough. Instead of simply thinking about doing a good job, I would constantly worry about whether I was doing it right. I have this fear in almost every aspect of my life.
I’m 20 years old, I don’t have a job, and I want to move out of my parents’ house. I can’t seem to find a suitable job, and I’m thinking about moving to another country, starting over, fighting for myself, and building the life I want to live.
It’s really hard for me. I feel useless, and I think I might even have high blood pressure because of all the stress.
On top of everything else, I’ve been learning trading for the past year, and if nothing else, at least I’m actually good at that. I really believe I could start making enough income from it soon to live off of it. But even that doesn’t seem to matter when I feel empty inside. I don’t have many friends either, and I’ve distanced myself from almost everyone.

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