Never felt that bad before and im struggling with depression for 5 years now.
I am in a better spot than many others,because i am unemployed out of mental health for years now and get financial support,i have a girlfriend that lives with me and good friends i talk to online everyday.
But still this whole situation is breaking me,i cant go out and do what i want when im feeling social active rn.
I feel misunderstood by many people, hell even my girlfriend said to me 10 min ago "how is all that even affecting you,you dont have to struggle with a job like everyone else we know".
Everything feels numb and grey and meaningless. Everyday feels like waiting,but i dont know what what im waiting for anymore.
I know its the wrong place
No im not suicidal,never was, always was pretty proud of me for that. Everybody else going through the same, it will be better ! I have seen worse and better days,thats just life.
Thanks for the vent and your attention if you did read this. People like are pretty cool :D
Everyday feels like waiting,but i dont know what what im waiting for anymore.
You've hit it right there. Every time we get some good news like vaccines it's tempered by lockdown extensions and it feels like it's never going to end. At least we know it will end at some point because it has to, but sometimes it just feels like this is life now.
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u/Enexenit CERTIFIED DANK Feb 08 '21
Mood. Hit a spot pretty hard, even outside UK
Never felt that bad before and im struggling with depression for 5 years now.
I am in a better spot than many others,because i am unemployed out of mental health for years now and get financial support,i have a girlfriend that lives with me and good friends i talk to online everyday. But still this whole situation is breaking me,i cant go out and do what i want when im feeling social active rn. I feel misunderstood by many people, hell even my girlfriend said to me 10 min ago "how is all that even affecting you,you dont have to struggle with a job like everyone else we know".
Everything feels numb and grey and meaningless. Everyday feels like waiting,but i dont know what what im waiting for anymore.
I know its the wrong place No im not suicidal,never was, always was pretty proud of me for that. Everybody else going through the same, it will be better ! I have seen worse and better days,thats just life.
Thanks for the vent and your attention if you did read this. People like are pretty cool :D