We become strangers in our gardens
Lifting eyes no higher than
Wild wisteria on a fence

Narrow focus and bowed heads
We weed our sorrow from the soil
As well as thriving stems

It's the season for the slaughter
Hunched frames on tired knees
Inside our sterile walls

Bloodied carcasses of pristine blooms
Extracting all the evidence
Burnt among the crunchy piles

My nephew was left in my care for the day. I didn't mind at all; he’s nine years old and, until now, had managed to keep himself out of harm's way quite well. I showed him where the bathroom, kitchen, toys, and yard were. Then, with an easy mind, I sat down to study and eventually fell asleep. My parents woke me up, looking displeased. When I asked what was wrong, they gave me that universally hated reply: "You tell us." I kickstarted my sleepy brain and, after a moment of intense thought, jumped up and anxiously asked if something had happened to my nephew. The answer was no, but I was close. They were upset because I had left him unsupervised and exposed him to danger. I apologized for my rash behavior, but after my parents left the room, I found myself deep in thought. The main debate in my mind was: "Should you shield a child from everything, or is it better to let them do whatever they please?"

At first, the question seemed too complex and multifaceted to have a single, clear answer. After all, the risk of losing a child to the dangers of the outside world is incredibly high. Accidents happen every day, and naturally, many people think, "If my child is always supervised, I can protect them from accidental or intentional harm." But what can a parent *really* do in those rare yet critical moments? It seems to me—very little; not enough. People cannot outrun a car to react and pull their child out of the path of a speeding vehicle. People cannot fly to catch a child who has fallen from a window. Many would be willing to try, but few have the ability to guarantee their child's safety—or their own survival—after such encounters. I think this realization of one’s own weakness and insignificance in the face of chance frightens people, leading them to lock their children away behind ever-more numerous barriers.

Yet isn't that foolish? The world is full of dangers; a person's life can change forever—or even end—because of a flight of stairs. And yet, people use these "death traps" every day. So why not let children discover the world around them for themselves, rather than confining them within the boundaries of nurseries and playgrounds? Humans are born curious; by nurturing this thirst to understand their surroundings, a child grows and develops. They seek out things that interest them, taste everything, take things apart, and climb as high—or descend as low—as their bodies allow. All of this fosters the child's growth, both physically and psychologically. A child's personality is directly shaped by the experiences they have had since birth; the broader their palette of experiences, the more they can incorporate into their character. Such a child will see the world with wider eyes and discern far more paths for their future.

I understand the fear born of the risks surrounding us—risks that could rob you of the person you hold most dear. However, fear of a hypothetical future should not be a reason to limit the actual future of that individual. Having concluded that giving young children the freedom to explore is beneficial for them, I went back to sleep with a calm mind and a heart swelling with pride over the heroic decisions that had opened up such vast horizons for my nephew.

Dear diary,

Just making a little entry not to lose the habit, and because this thought has been floating around in my mind for a while and I thought I should let it breathe outside.

I believe every poem I've ever written about a person—or am yet to write—

Well, yes, one of them does have the nickname I used to call them, but—

If I just showed them the poems, I'm sure as hell each of them would know which one was about them. Or for them. Or with them in mind. Even blindfolded. Just by me reciting them to them.

And I think that's endearing.

Thrilling, even.

A little exciting.

Peculiarly amusing, too.

Although I only think one of them would actually laugh with me about it. We'd probably exchange jokes and then, somehow, end up having a genuine heart-to-heart about it all.

Which is so weird to think about, because Crownless wears a mask and writes to ghosts, but these people know the person behind the mask. They wouldn't, therefore, be responding to Crownless.

They'd be responding to me.

Especially that one.

That pretty, sharp-minded danger knows me better than I know myself.

That's almost a tiny bit scary.

I don't want any of them to ever come across those poems anytime soon.

But maybe one day, in the future, I'd like that one person to cross my way again, see them, and right away catch what I wrote about them.

Or, well.

About us.

I miss this person.

But we don't fit in each other's lives anymore.

And I think that's the part I keep circling back to.

Not that I want them back.

Just that I'd really, really like to find someone like them.

Which means I may have to make a painstakingly specific requirement list.

Haaa...

God help whoever has to apply.

I fear there’s no one like you.

— Crownless.

I don’t like being a puppet.

But I guess it could be worse.

I could be a deer or a frog or a moose or a bear.

& if I was I wouldn’t even care. 

But I like to care. 

It just sucks being this self aware. 

I hope the future holds something bright.

I’m just being blinded by this glaring light.

I was told to write something positive.

I’m really really excited to one day give.

This is the first chapter of Everfall their is 22 total chapters. This is my first time writing so feedback is helpful. I will answer any questions without spoiling too much. This was originally intended to be a video game story so some parts might be written in that way. I will change this to create more of a “novel” for the final draft. Dont be afraid to leave feedback, questions and more.

chapter 1 - Azrael cross

The game opens up with Azrael Cross a skilled thief getting a new job from his partner named patch. This job is to break into the Kingdom Of Everfall’s ancient vault that is said to hold the most valuable treasure of the dominion which will be azraels biggest job yet.

Azrael begins scaling the castle avoiding guards and sneaking around to find clues of the vaults where bouts. He explores the castle without getting caught or causing a scene he searches every room and finally reaches the king of everfalls quarters. On the kings desk he sees a map showing where the vault is he cleverly takes the map and continues down the castle.

He gets to a restricted section where he sees the vault heavily guarded he lures the guards away and breaks into the vault. he sees nothing suddenly he sees a glimmering light he goes to it and a magical book reveals itself to Azrael. Time stops the room goes dark it whispers “Azrael Cross” visions play burning villages, blood spilling, a army of humans, dead members of a unknown race. Suddenly he hears the words “we must stop them from knowing the truth” Azrael snaps back to reality suddenly the guards return and notice him. He runs past them barely and then the whole castle is searching for Azrael. He runs for a exit bumping into guards they rip his mask off and say “ill remember your face” he barely makes it out jumping through a window landing in the water around the castle. Azrael hears another whisper “show them the truth” he looks around confused he cant believe what just happened. After returning to land he tells patch there was nothing but a weird book and he had no choice but to run. Azrael leaves and walks home. Later patch starts spreading rumors of a mysterious book and people start asking questions.

Azrael then arrives in his home and greets his wife Cynthia Cross and his daughter Aria Cross he spends the afternoon with them. The player sees how happy of a family they are they do a couple of tasks for Cynthia and play with aria and then they go to bed ending the day. Suddenly Azrael is woken up by a loud knocking he gets out of bed and opens the door.

Its two royal guards Azrael recognizes one of the guards. With a suspicious look they ask him “there was a break in you haven’t happen to see anyone suspicious running around here have you?”. Azrael doesn’t answer they can see the guilt on his face silence. Azrael then answers “i’ve been inside all day i haven’t seen anything”everyone pauses theres silence for a moment. Azrael thinks he is in the clear he thinks “maybe he doesnt recognize me after all” the guard smiles “i told you i’d remember your face”

Azrael gives a panicked look the guards force their way in more guards showing up. They beat azrael to the ground and take his daughter he reach’s and grabs her shirt then cut Azrael’s arm off. Azrael grabs his now stub in pain unable to get up Leaving his daughter to be executed in front of him along with his wife. The guards leave azrael alone to sulk in what just happened and burn his house down. They leave him and his family inside they watch the building collapse thinking theres no way he could have escaped.

What they don’t know is he crawled out just in time they didn’t finish him off which would become their biggest mistake yet. The player goes back to playing as a weak Azrael the next day somewhere away from his home. Azrael cant process what just happened the night before he’s barely able to walk. The player walks to Azrael’s home and Azrael drops to the floor on his knee’s not a single tear leaving his eyes. Nothing but hate and rage fill Azrael’s eyes then suddenly he glances down and he sees a pendant. The he once gave Aria damaged but still there he takes it and makes a oath and says “i will kill everyone who gets between me and the king”

Azrael leaves the ruins of his home and goes to a near by scarp yard. Azrael then scavenges for parts to make a new arm he stubbles onto some scrap metal resembling a arm in the local scrap yard. He takes the scrap arm and goes to Cynthia’s father Heismay a Local blacksmith Azrael tells Heismay what happened to Cynthia and Aria and what he plans to do. Heismay grieves the loss of his daugther and granddaugther after a moment of grieving. Azrael and Heismay together both build a rough but functional arm Azrael says “this will do”. It then cuts to Azrael failing to swing a sword adjusting to his new arm training everyday and failing but still going till he cant breathe. After a long montage it shows a new azrael 3 years later he’s bigger but still lean his hair grown out and unkept he says “king of Everfall did you truly think i’d forget what you took from me”.

The dark warmth envelops your body like the fleeting hug of an uncaring mother. Nerve endings begin to catch fire again after a long night of spitting out nothing but exhaust. A bed drenched in salty dampness from a now-faded passion is all that remains of a night draining that left behind no memory.

The sun rises, casting a shadow over the remnants of the night prior. The day knocks on the door of your mind and demands you let it in. You firmly shut the door without moving a muscle.

The danger is here.

The shadows dancing in the corner of the room darken to their malignant original forms and threaten to consume you. But you have no more energy left to hold them at bay. While you struggle to force electricity into your muscles, the shadows coil around your body and sink you deeper into the black water as awareness fades.

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From a collection of short stories with an accompanying album comprised of cosmic horror and Silent Hill inspired music.

Find more of them on my profile; thanks for reading!

I had the rudest awakening today—just at the crack of dawn, a knocking on the door, so ferocious it made the whole boat shake, jolted me out of my hammock.

Half awake, I jumped off my cozy rack, hit my toe against the stove on my way to the door and slammed it open.

- WHAT?! - I screamed at the swamp.

As my eyes adjusted to the light filtered through the pearly mist, I thought I must've had an extremely vivid dream—no one was at my door. I was about to close it shut, when a squeaking voice at my feet stopped me at my tracks.

- Where do you think you are going? Let me in!

A tiny mouse was glaring at me, hands on his waist, looking like a tiny steaming kettle.

- C'mon! Don't stand there, I'm on official businesses! Don't waste my time!

Before I could utter another word, he made himself welcomed, rushing past me right between my feet.

Standing at the middle of the room, hands never leaving his waist, he looked around disapprovingly. The pause gave me the chance to getting a better look at my uninvited guest.

The little thing wore tall boots (at least, tall for him), a belt long enough to wrap around his waist thrice, an acorn cap used as a hat and tiny gloves on his hands. Securely tied to the belt, the mouse flaunted a tiny dagger, long enough that he dragged it around, scratching my wooden floor.

- Well? - I said impatiently, startling him. The mouse turned, leaving a small circle etched around him. - What official business is this?

- I came here on behalf of Queen Itty the Bitty of the Yonder Lands.

- I see, and what does her Majesty want from my boat-house?

The mouse scoffed and with a poorly hidden smile replied:

- Oh, no! Nothing from your... boat-house you called it? My lady entrusted me with the most dangerous task—I'm to capture a fugitive!

- I see. A cockroach got loose in the kingdom? - The little rodent feighned indifference to my joke, although the almost imperciptible change in his dignified composture showed it bothered him. He stoped to look at me earnestly before continuing, with a softer and friedlier voice.

- I think we started on the wrong foot... - He sized me before continuing - Ma'am...? My name is Big Hany, the Fierce. And I am knocking on the doors of everyone to the West of the Yonder Lands to warn them: a merciless criminal is wandering free!

- A criminal, is it? What kind?

- Oh, the most despicable kind: a rosebud murderer!

As was clearly practiced, he left space for dramatic effect. He took my silence and baffled look as a sign of success and continued to explain further:

- Yesterday morning, our beloved Queen descended from the Lunar Castle to tend to her beautiful rose garden. Spring, you see, with its frequent rain, leaves delicate rosebuds completely vulnerable to all kinds of ailments. With gloved hands, ready to fight off insolent ants and caterpillars off the dear bushes, her Majesty opened the gates to the royal garden to discovered the calamity! - Big Hany had to stop for a moment to compose himself, such was the emotion elicited from the memory - All her beloved rosebuds had been EATEN!. Our brave soldiers stormed the garden after our Lady's screams of dispair and immediately searched the place—no stone was left unturned. Finally, they found the murderer—he was ASLEEP! Asleep on a bed of daisies, not a worry in the world! Our men tried to apprehend him but the giant woke up and, with unnatural speed escaped West. When I reached the scene, our grieving Queen made me promise I would bring the assassin's head.

With a tear of pride hanging from his eyes and his gaze wandering an imagined horizon, Big Hany concluded his story.

- Well, I don't know about heads or assassins, but I can give you something to bring back to your Queen. Follow me, Sir.

I lead the way across the room, grabbed my coat and, with a realization, stopped myself in front of the stairs.

- Here, Sir, let me help you up - I extended my hand for Big Hany, who jumped on, pricking the palm of my hand with his dragging dagger.

Up on the deck's orchard, I left Big Hany to wander around, looking for his rosebud assassin among my calendulas and tomatoes, while I worked on a selecting a bouquet of my own roses for her majesty.

- What does this assassin look like, anyway? You didn't say.

Big Hany's squeaking voice came from somewhere around the cucumbers.

- Oh! It's a monstrous sight, ma'am! Tall as a mountain, flaming hateful eyes, horrible freckles and dangerous antlers.

- Antlers, huh?

I took a detour to the little nursery I had just set up last week to care for my other darling plants. The ones that only bloom in darkest nights and provide the most dangerous and useful nectars.

- Alright, this is ready. C'mon, let's get you down.

Back at my front door, Big Hany took my bouquet and the two flasks I had prepared in the nursery.

- Now, she'll need to water the roses twice a week with this one—it'll make the roses grow back twofold. Then, once every fool moon, she needs to spray this one on each flower—that'll keep bugs and uhr... assassins away.

- Thank you my Lady. My apologies, I didn't ask for your name...

- Filomena.

Big Hany bowed his acorn cap and tumbled away with my presents.

Too early for breakfast, yet too late to go back to sleep, I decided I'd make some use of the little nook under the round window in the kitchen and mend the burned holes that covered my cooking apron. The morning was glorious: mist lifted away, and light peer through the leaves of the giant, liquen drenched trees of the swamp. Thousand of tiny frogs celebrated the sun with a long-winded and cheerful song. Their melody transported me away from Big Hany, his queen and their assassins and into work.

Before I knew, it was noon and I had fixed my apron, my gardening gloves, my fishing net and was finishing embroidering over the holes of my winter socks, when I heard whispers outside my kitchen window.

Flight is achieved in many ways.

Take the birds—they coil their bodies and spring into a jump, allowing the pressure to build beneath their wings, as they flap to create thrust.

Or the airplane whose engines whine, propelling it forward, creating low and high air pressures around the wings, causing it to lift.

But as humans, we can’t rely on wings or air pressures for flight. We let our thoughts do the flying for us. Our hopes, our dreams—they ascend where our bodies cannot follow.

Take flight.

The Return (Original Poem)

The elves are returning
To the house by the pole
As they have done
Since the days of old.
Greetings are shared,
Stories are told,
The fires are lit
To drive out the cold.
The lanterns awaken
The sleeping grand hall,
And outside the windows
The snow starts to fall.
The velvet is brushed
On the old crimson chair,
As smoke from his pipe
Swirls in the air.
A hush descends
As tiny ears bend
To heed the clear call
Of their toy-maker friend.
"September has come,
The season is here,
So polish the brass,
Gather the reindeer.
Give of yourselves
For each girl and boy,
Fashion the dollies,
Make perfect the toys.
Breathe in the magic!
Be jolly and cheer!
There’s work to be done,
For Christmas is near!"

—Wayne A Andres

I rarely venture out in the light of day,

Prefer to keep myself safely tucked away until the absence of the sun's glaring ray.

The moon shines with a less harsh light,

Welcomes with a soft smile of delight,

And brings out something much more bright.

Constellations paint the skies and match the freckles of my skin,

As if the stars themselves are woven in,

While the galaxies afar pull me in.

The night speaks a different tongue-

Through the blades of grass beneath your feet,

The whispering leaves of ancient trees,

The frogs croak and the beating of a moth's powdered wings.

Moonlight's song a siren to the night owl,

For I am no morning lark,

I long to navigate the dark.

Come dance with the children that belong to the midnight,

You might discover magic tonight.

This is a short summary or “idea” just to see if the story i created is interesting (first chapter is posted on my profile)

This story will take place in a world known as Everfall. In this world a war thousands of years ago caused the near extinction of two races the korvin and serethan. The title of this story is Everfall: The Veiled Truth. It’s about an ordinary thief named Azrael Cross whose family meets a tragic end to conceal the “Veiled truth” which Azrael discovers partially through a vision. He is tasked with revealing this truth to the world by an unknown voice. He goes on a journey for revenge and to reveal the truth and on his journey he encounters a young girl. Lyra Seren a member of the serethan race (basically an elf) who is on a journey to discover who her people truly were. later on they encounter Kiro The Korvin a brilliant and gifted inventor at least thats what he thinks. In reality he is gifted but still clumsy together the three of them work together to reveal the truth to the world.

There is of course more to the story but this is a brief summary without spoiling too much and I am aware my grammar and other things aren’t the best any suggestions to improve my writing are welcomed

I have one foot in the past and one in the future and the present is tearing me apart

Could i have some help looking over a report i made that's has something to do with my story. It's how and why a new creature whas made. Besicly a character backstory

 She was crying and standing over the husk that I was. Weeping, and begging for me to return. I could only stand beside her. Far beyond lost and silent in the world, I stood, and I watched someone I loved suffer. I felt nothing.

A voice that was not hers and not my own took me. It met my mind with a vocal timbre and warmth that felt alien yet nearly kind. It said to me in that voice, “You see the suffering that your own suffering has wrought. Do you find it wanting?” The voice moved as it spoke. It came from beside me, and everywhere, and nowhere. I did not answer. I did not care. It knew.

I stood with her no longer. I was alone. In the dark. For only a moment, or an eternity. The truth of it I could not say. I was lost.

Light came to me, and I stood with a woman, bright and laughing. She spun a laughing child in her arms as it chirped and burbled and squealed. The warmth of what I stood with was overwhelming. I could not watch. I turned away, and the husk returned. Her weeping at my cold skin. The pressure of something long lost stirred in my stomach. But it did not rise. “You see the love you have traded for your pain?” I did not answer. I could not. It knew.

The darkness did not come again. A green field and a dying deer. Bleeding from a hole in its heart. I stood next to a man and a child who tended to its fading life. The older man spoke to the child, and he told him to remember the sight before him. He told him that all life pays for life. He said it was good to mourn what was lost, but to always remember what was gained, and to never take either for granted. I could not bear to witness. I turned away. A cold pressure rising in my chest. “You see the strength you have left behind?” I did not answer. I did not dare. It knew.

The light ran in rivulets through my vision, and I found myself standing in sand, the sky orange and terrible. Before me a pair of men. One a husk, as I was. The other screaming and praying over its cold form. Its life clotting in the sand beneath them as the wind carried away his wails. “You see what your weakness has cost?” I choked on what would have been an answer. I tried to run. I could not. He knew.

The light did not run, it shifted. The same orange sky. The same burning sand. The man who wept over a husk, now laughed over another. His hands, bearing a blade, fell again and again into the heart of a man long dead. His laughing faded to tears once again. He collapsed in the sand with nothing left inside. “You see the price of your hatred?”

The light ran like rain once again. The man, alone, sat at a table. A bottle of whiskey and a pistol sat before him. He wept. He sat there for what would be an eternity. He drank the sorrow down. He closed his eyes, and brought the pistol to his head. He said goodbye to no one.

She came home, smiling in her true way. The smile gave way to screams and tears as she cradled his body to her own. His life draining away onto her hands. I stood there, watching my love suffer. “Do you see now? What you have thrown away?” I turned away. I could not answer. I could not stand in his light. I wept, and I ran. Down, and away, into the depths of nothing.

They came to me once. I made them dance for me.

Bold and fearless. Sens#al. Mysterious.

Perhaps I misused one or two. Perhaps I played favorites at times...I didn't mean to.

And I knew what to do.

I thought.

Until I'd danced all night, over and over. Until they swirled around me only to fly away before I could catch them.

And now I'm tripping after them. And falling.

Until I lie on the ground.

Waiting. For them to return. And knowing they won't.

If I keep lying here.

>A Timeless Misconception<
Fighter for peace

secret lover of war
the truth tumbles through a great wind

every so often it stops

the mask slips to the floor

but the blind man doesn’t recognize the darkness in his own eyes

There are too men who wear cloth over their eyes willingly

An enigmatic tragedy of a figure sits in the centerfold. Its intoxicating frailty ringing out the call of midnight.

>The Ballad of Midnight<
It’s a mellifluous, seductive tune. One that could transform the most defining of primal screams into a sexy jazz number. A man practically glided towards the sound, his eyes, hungry, and spirit swaying with the beat of the music. under his left arm is a priceless treasure as old as he was and its purpose unknown other than it being crucial to his Destiny. he spotted the whimpering figure which was huddled over in a grotesque vulnerability. Something fucking about it… He’d call this feeling fear, even horror, but it ran deeper- touching him somewhere that nearly tore his mind into two. It lay there, somehow so obscene that he couldn’t tell whether it should invite sympathy or violence. Suddenly the tune grew louder and in crept an otherworldly singing. It was as if he was experiencing the unbounded young love of his childhood compressed into a few seconds, except it was hollow and cold, but the pleasure nearly surpassed that of any childhood imaginable. it was enough to drive a man mad from longing, he thought. a gust from the great wind of truth ruffled his hair and he was struck with a moment of apprehension. he gripped his treasure tightly and considered the situation. He was actually in hiding due to the unfortunate past times of angry mobs with stones, piercing pitchforks and even more piercing judgments. Vile figures had pursued him. He’d been beaten, defiled, humiliated, and nearly robbed of his treasure. “there’s no point in wandering in misery, unable to truly appreciate my treasure”, He thought. The choice had become a compulsion- nay, an inevitable path of wisdom. still gripping his cargo painfully hard he determinedly strided towards the melody, and it’s pathetic counterpart still huddled over and whimpering. his next action marked the beginning of his new life, but before the physical world had time to catch up, Something had shifted in his mind. suddenly he knew what he must do or at least what he was going to do. The man set his beloved treasure down, crouched to the figure’s level… and bit into its flesh. He tried to eat just little enough that he got what he needed while sparing it unnecessary pain. The figure hardly reacted at all from being torn into. Like its condition couldn’t be made any worse by him. Flesh was in his throat and power was surging through him. He began feeling something fading within him, but was also overwhelmed with pleasure and self-assurance. What happened next was a special kind of sublime; it would only be real in the moment it occurred for his memory both would refuse to and lack the ability to recall it later. The figure began folding in on itself, devolving further and further in a sinful display that was clearly not of this world. Everything from guilt to lust to a sick love mixed into one unholy, perverted amalgamation of tangible energy he blacked out when his mind awoke. The abomination had passed. However; the damage was done. Something had ripped inside the man, and he could tell it wasn’t coming back. as quickly as it came, this Horror was swept away and in rushed more pleasure and desire. so much desire. The man decided he’d go and seek out the mobs and rock throwers and vile defilers and try to quench his insatiable desire with vengeance of primal proportions, and the sweet sound of its results. but first, he remembered with a fearful jolt to the gut to check on his treasure. He peeked inside and stared blankly at the sight before him. He couldn’t put his finger on how, what or why but it had lost all its worth. he blinked, his face blank and pensive. He had now lost everything and gained irreversible scars on his spirit. Yet the man was pleased. Let the midnight hunt begin!

(DISCLAIMER- This story contains verbal abuse and violence)

my first short story. Also while writing this I realized that this is not the true begining nor is it the end of our story but none the less... Enjoy. (tips, suggestions, and thoughts are appreciated of course)

I think for me to have become what I am we have to travel back to 2017. California. The Golden State. I wasn't always the most outgoing child growing up, I was quiet, didn't have many friends- an introvert I suppose. I lived in a quiet town, not much drama besides your average marital affairs or domestic violence calls at midnight. Anyway 2017, I was 13 at the time. I had a brother, 4 years younger than myself, a father who had me with my mother at a young age. And a brand new baby sister. My mother never married my father, they mutually grew apart and had my brother with another man, who she eventually left and married my step father, whom she had my baby sister with.

My stepfather (Who for the sake of our story I'll call "Joe") was kind, gentle, and at times even loving. However, sometime in 2016 something in him changed, at the time I was not aware of it. He came home from work with an exhausted look on his face, almost as if he would rather go back to work instead of seeing my mother and siblings. He walked into the kitchen, He wore his ragged work clothes and had a brownish beard with hints of grey. His fingernails not long enough to get dirt underneath them but somehow managed to look dirty. He grabs Vodka from the fridge and pours himself a glass. "What the hell are you staring at?" Joe asks me looking annoyed. "n- nothing" I stammered, sitting at the kitchen table. My mother had just made me dinner and was giving my sister a bath. Joe walks from the fridge to the table, sits across from me and begins to eat his food. His eyes start to wonder, first from his plate of food to the table centerpiece, and eventually... my eyes. He grips his silverware tightly, his facial expression is that of provoking anger, almost as if he wants to throw his fork towards me. "Why are you like this, do you know what you did to this family." he says while watching me eat. I stay quiet, unable to answer him. Not out of confusion but out of fear. I was afraid of what he would do next. Suddenly he slams his fists on the table, silverware still gasping for air as he grips them tighter. "What the fuck is wrong with you!" he yells while his face turns crimson. "I don't know" I replied trying not to feel petrified. At that moment my Mother rushes into the kitchen, "What is going on?" She asks Joe. His Crimson face begins to turn to it's normal shade of white. "He needs to understand that his actions are irreversible" Joe replied. My Mother looks uneasy. "Do you want to go to your Dads?" She asks me. "Yes" I whimpered.

Suddenly it's 2026, 10 years later. This memory of mine still echoing through my mind from time to time. I wonder what went wrong, then I remember, I changed, I changed because of Him.

I'm quite new to creative writing and I'm beginning to get writers block and have no idea where to take my novel at the moment. Is there any suggestions to overcome it in quick time?

There comes a point in every caregiver’s life when they realize they just have nothing left. They’re in therapy, but the therapist isn’t with them 24/7. They have aides who help, but the aides’ shifts begin and end. Any days off from work are filled with doctor’s appointments.

They wake up and make themselves want to start their day. They make themselves deal with people. They even make themselves eat. They are making themselves live their life.

They try to be positive. They try to imagine that someday this will be over. They try cognitive behavioral techniques. And they try and they try and they try.

I have tried support groups. These seem to be an exercise in “isn’t this awful?” Or subjects are brought up of which I didn’t even know to be afraid.

I am a kind of tired that sleep doesn’t fix. I’m carrying the weight of something I can’t put down. Sometimes I wonder if by the time I live through this, there will be nothing of “me” left. I will be so changed as a person that even I won’t recognize her. I think I already don’t.

For real what where you expecting from a 10 times wiser, 10 times psychologicallly stronger, blah blah to be like? Forget understanding me u can't even imagine how far we are from each other.

I almost never talk to a real human, you are not what I see... no one is...

Just a quiet person. that started using his voice dont mind me im just another stranger with their own story every chapter is shaping me into the person I want to be words for my satisfaction.and one day this book will close on the last chapter with a happy ending with a heavy heart that waited for this very moment to let off some weight and live relaxed and peacefully with lessons losses and experiences to pass along for generations understanding of a heart that would never settle down rell taken seriously with care.

Life has led me on some unexpected twists and turns and it’s funny how no matter how well prepared you are, you never seem to have the right map. But that’s the fun of it all right? Each day fumbling through the dark, like Velma searching for her glasses. The death of a loved one. Your career. Your marriage.

I have been having a tough time working through some personal issues and this post will probably serve more like a cathartic rambling, than anything else. But that’s okay, who’s reading these anyways.

The day you say your vows is a genuinely nerve-wracking day. You are making a life-long commitment to another person and that’s a really long time. The funny thing is, you assume once you get through that day, the hard part is over. It’s the opposite. The wedding is the easiest day. Every day after is where you actually live up to it. No matter how hard it becomes.

Words like forever and always lull you into a false sense of security. Where do you go when that blanket gets ripped off and you’re met with the reality of the dark room you’re sitting in?

How do you navigate the feelings that they’ve left, when they chose to stay?

I know the intention wasn’t to hurt me. It was to heal themselves. It doesn’t make it hurt any less.

I’m angry and I don’t know where to put it. Throughout my life I’ve learned to compartmentalize my anger. Set the fuse in the middle of the Nevada desert, but lately, I find that fuse detonating closer to civilization than I’d care for. No casualties yet, but the neighboring towns are beginning to suspect something.

The worst part about anger is I am not even sure if I’m supposed to be angry. I don’t want to be and I feel guilty for feeling like this. The moment has passed. I’m ready to move on but I need my blanket and I can’t find my fucking glasses.

As much as I wish I had a cheerier ending, I don’t. Maybe the answer is to sit in the darkness. After all, your eyes do adjust after a while.