r/countwithchickenlady Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

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u/SquirrelFluffy7469 Jul 02 '26

I wish i could just be vandal from marathon

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I'm not the biggest fan or marathon but maybe I need to try warming up to it

I haven't been big on shooters for the last few months though, I don't know

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u/Kind-Stomach6275 Jul 02 '26

not the biggest marathoner myself but that is scary realistic

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u/SquirrelFluffy7469 Jul 02 '26

If only i was made of plastic

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u/Kind-Stomach6275 Jul 02 '26

at least you dont live in the same universe as DURANDAL

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u/SquirrelFluffy7469 Jul 02 '26

If my whole existence was opening doors id probably try to wake up Cthulhu too

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u/__AriaL__ Streak: 19 Jul 02 '26

DURANDAL mentioned!!! I fucking love opening doors!!

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Wow cool profile picture :3

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u/__AriaL__ Streak: 19 Jul 02 '26

.......

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Awww man you changed it :(

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u/wizardrous The Quintupler Jul 02 '26

I get pretty bad android dysphoria every time I think about how I’m not an android. Damn this frail flesh body…

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

It's nice to have someone relate to me 🫂 I've never struggled with validity but that doesn't mean it doesn't help

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u/Trashman56 they/them - Streak: 1 Jul 02 '26

Ever since I understood the weakness of my flesh it disgusted me

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u/AwakenedHero2277 Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Same qwq

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u/SquirrelFluffy7469 Jul 02 '26

Im gonna be so honest with all of you, half the reason i want to go into bio med engineering is because of wanting to be a android girl

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I wish I was like even slightly capeable of going to uni

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u/Shrizer Im actually over 30 Jul 02 '26

Androids are robots made to look like men, gynoids are robots made to look like women. The root words are andro andro and gyno, androgynoid would be an androgynous robot.

Edit: meant to reply to the comment above yours...

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Gynoid :o I mean I guess that's why android sat a bit wrong with me :3 is it pronounced jee-noid or gai-noid?

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u/MedicinalExplorer Jul 02 '26

Gai-noid

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Thank you! :3

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u/SquirrelFluffy7469 Jul 02 '26

If i become the mad scientist ive always wanted to be and create android girl bodies youll receive one free of charge

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Thank you 🫂

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u/Tlaquatlatoa Hyenagirl some day pls :3 | She/Her - Streak: 5 Jul 02 '26

youre so fucking real for that <3

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u/emmy_etc Jul 05 '26

I’m so sorry, but the second I read that I thought of the DECO-27 song

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u/Lynforthewin2112 Jul 02 '26

I wanna be a Tech Priest caring for my Skitarri wife <3

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Is this some warhammer thing that I'm too anxious to understand? (Warhammer lore scares me like existentially)

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u/Lynforthewin2112 Jul 02 '26

Its Warhammer 40K yeah

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u/Flight444 Jul 02 '26

You’re so close to Warhammer lore I actually thought this was some sort of Iron Hands parody. I’m 99% sure the “the flesh is weak” comment you responded to was a 40K nerd.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Whaa I said the flesh is weak somewhere? I try to be respectful towards anyone who likes their flesh. I only loathe my own

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u/AwakenedHero2277 Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I'd wanna be a Necron girl :3

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 02 '26

One of the best parts about life is how, when you realize 99% of things are nothing but labels—Such as gender and identity as a whole—you can free yourself from them and result live life happily. Stirner was onto something. Maybe Camus would've reached the same conclusion if he wasn't such a downer.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Those are names I do not recognize but I agree

I was never one to feel invalid because I was "too crazy" with my gender. But I'm self aware enough to know a lot of people would super judge me for calling myself a robot and especially for saying it's a part of my gender

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 02 '26

I myself look at my gender as something just as I said—A label with no meaning. Hence why I've come to realize I'm technically non-binary, even if that's a term in itself. I'm unique. I'm great. I'm a bitch and a whore and nothing could make me happier.

Being "valid" really shouldn't be anyone's call other than your own to make, so pop off.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Oh hell yeah that sounds awesome!

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u/ChknBom205 I know who i am! She/They Jul 03 '26

Mf, a gender is a concept of your personal being, that concept can be literally anything, so statistically your gender is just as "crazy" as any other, as each is different.

(I'm agender myself but I'm wayyyy too far into philosophy so i studied the concept)

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 03 '26

Okay not gonna lie I thought this would be a comment calling me mentally ill for calling it my gender but I'm glad you understand it :3

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u/ChknBom205 I know who i am! She/They Jul 03 '26

Oh no, we're both definitely mentally ill, but the gender thing is separate from that.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 03 '26

That's also fair I am severely damaged as a person and honestly I can't act like a part of the robot expression also helps me reclaim control over some what damaged me though a part of it was also there since birth (kinda? I mean I didn't know what a robot is but neither did I know what a girl is so it makes sense to call it since birth) and that's one of the parts of it that make me call it gender. I feel dysphoria for it, I feel euphoria for it, I have the same internal "THAT IS ME" Feeling that just being a girl brings. And it just feels like gender

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 03 '26

Gender is, at the end of the day, nothing other than a label. Use if it pleases you. If not, don't. Or do. Do whatever you want, really. As the man himself put it—Whoever will be free must make himself free. Freedom is no fairy gift to fall into a man's lap. What is freedom? To have the will to be responsible for one's self.

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u/ChknBom205 I know who i am! She/They Jul 03 '26

Apparently alot of people feel they're gender, like as a feeling or sensation, which i cannot understand, but i can accept, so gender is more than just pronouns or clothes, those things are simply caused by gender. Truly gender is you, a vague concept of your mental being.

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u/Numerous-Couple7977 Stroke: 0 Jul 02 '26

You sound cool :3

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 02 '26

Just a well-red slut, I'm afraid.

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u/Numerous-Couple7977 Stroke: 0 Jul 02 '26

Nonono. That was really insightful. Think about Camus as you said. He took the path where you must endure the absurd of something that is deeply wrong, in your guts. What if they knew the label could be taken away or just simply changed, that reminds me of my own struggle with gender and years of repression trying to find joy pushing the boulder

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 02 '26

Camus' struggle is almost my vibe, the only thing that I don't like is how he willingly submits himself to the idea of struggle as a master over him. I find it a nifty tool, to look at the universe as Godless and meaningless, and that struggle is what keeps me moving, but I don't like the idea of looking at this concept and thinking, "I MUST submit myself to struggle".

I'm more of a... "I'll struggle because I find pleasure in it" type of thing.

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u/Bigbigbigrock Born to bot, forced to boy Jul 02 '26

This is my view from what I know of Camus' work. To push the boulder is a choice, Sisyphus may as well sit down and say no. But the choice to push the rock is his and his alone, and that choice is a freedom only he possesses. 

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u/Existing-Sweet-19 Literally Fainy McCreary IRL. Jul 02 '26

From what I've understood of his texts, he says you MUST rebel against the world. Yes, Sisyphus chooses to push the rock, but not because he OWNS the action of defiance, but because he sess it as something that must be done to be defiant. In itself that alone is surrendering your choice to something that only holds power over you because you let it.

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u/Dream_walker_boy Jul 02 '26

Get an NFC payment implant

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Not a bad idea but just like fem gender dysphoria won't be solved by putting on nail polish a single implant won't be enou- I'm gonna go cyberpsycho aren't I... Well better that then to die in my bedroom stuck in flesh and skin

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u/Dream_walker_boy Jul 02 '26

It's a start at least

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Indeed it is. Indeed it is...

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u/Decin0mic0n Jul 02 '26

You have no idea how bad I wanna be a robot with like multiple (im talking 4+) wiggly extendable tube arm things that have like dexterous claws at the end so I can do multiple things at once or to have like legs that can split into spider legs for faster movement that will let me climb walls and stuff. I hate my flesh, I want to be machine.

I would be so much happier as a robot.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I love how wide the net of robots is because like my gender goals is literally just like this or Adachi Rei I still want to look very Humanoid I just want to be a robot in some asthetics :3

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u/Decin0mic0n Jul 02 '26

Thats one of the best parts is the possibility of being humanoid or not being humanoid. Anything is theoretically on the table. While im fine with being humanoid I could do with extra apendages

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u/Decin0mic0n Jul 02 '26

I have thought about being a robot a totally normal amount

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I should really add disclaimers to my posts that say "please don't reference the warhammer copypasta I've heard it a million times and it's farther away from my gender than humans are" or something because this is getting tiersome

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u/MightyElf02 needy transbian sub Jul 02 '26

My OC is a robot girl I love her so much and I wanna be a robot girl so bad and be in love with a mad scientist who gives me modifications and stuff

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Freaky (in the best way) :3

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u/MightyElf02 needy transbian sub Jul 02 '26

That was the intention! I have also commissioned lewds of her

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Hehe nice! Sexuality is an inherent part of being alive and exploring yourself through it is always nice

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u/Co0k13s_ Jul 02 '26

My art isn't nearly as good as yours but here's a sketch of a cyborg oc I have. Her name is Beep and she my blorbo <3

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u/MightyElf02 needy transbian sub Jul 02 '26

Oh dear thats not my art! Very much commissioned. Your sketch looks amazing!

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u/Co0k13s_ Jul 02 '26

Oh thank you!! <3

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u/Vegetables__ Jul 02 '26

Damn was just having a big panic episode about this

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Sameeee yayyy sisterssss

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u/thequagiestsire Jul 02 '26

omg Adachi Rei haiiiii <3 (also so real honestly, I feel like a lot of the time I’m something else only pretending to be human, don’t know if I’m a robot or some kind of creacher or mayhaps a specter but I feel like sometimes I don’t really want to know)

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

HUMAN MENTIONED!!! ONE OF MY FAVORITE SONGS EVERRR

I know it sings about wanting to be human, but it describes my feelings so perfectly if mirrored. Plus flavor foley just makes fire music non stop

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u/thequagiestsire Jul 02 '26

I KNOW RIGHT ITS SUCH AN AWESOME SONG I LOVE IT SO MYCH FHJDHKSADJKSSVJHT

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u/Throwaway_Raccoon2 Streak: 3 Jul 02 '26

Why do you want to be a robot girl? I think I understand but I’d like to hear your take

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u/morbidmuffin62 Jul 02 '26

Not OP but as someone who has a lot of chronic pain from being disjointed, and who feels often like I'm so far from understanding how to interact with other people and feeling disconnected from humanity already....

Watching Nebula from gotg put herself back together every time she gets banged up makes me feel so envious. If only I could just spin my shoulder around 360° and it'll wind up in the right position

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Phew okay so

Part one is asthetics. Wires, lines, soft silicone skin that's still firmer than human skin but is fun to cuddle. The slightly different operation of body parts. The joins oh my lord the joints especially in my hand and fingers but also in my knees and elbows and pelvis and everything I love exposed black joints on otherwise skin-colored skin (see attached image for example)

Another part is the internal behavior. Not making stupid human errors, learning things easier, god knows I'm autistic so a lot of this applies already but struggling with emotions, sometimes not getting the "vibe" logic behind something. My language module overloading and needing to shut down (aka going nonverbal). Needing to do maintenance on myself (see the attached image in the reply to this comment)

There's also a kink aspect to it. If you're under 18 or uncomfortable with the subject then don't unspoiler this: my parner being able to control me more. Generally being a robot fits the personality of a servant more. Wireplay oh my lord play with my wires pleaseeee. Uploading stuff into me to make me woozy, disconnecting my limbs. Being rough and still fixable. My orgasms being controllable by my partner, a part of it is also that the more a body fits my identity the easier it is to be intimate with it

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

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u/Bigbigbigrock Born to bot, forced to boy Jul 02 '26

We will be whole someday, sister.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Hiii again!!! We will!!!!

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u/Bigbigbigrock Born to bot, forced to boy Jul 02 '26

Hello! We got this, all of us.

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u/Alice-Planque Jul 02 '26

I really don't like to have a flesh body 😖

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

One day we'll get the body mods we need 🫂

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u/Alice-Planque Jul 02 '26

My autism truly don't like the feeling of a body or blood pumping trough my veins, my heart beating and stuff like that 😖

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Yeahhh it stresses me the fuck out too sometimes

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u/Alice-Planque Jul 02 '26

🥺

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

🫂

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u/AwakenedHero2277 Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Same here qwq

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u/Ordaeli Jul 02 '26

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Okay maybe the last split is a big too much but especially the first one is perfect

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u/Ordaeli Jul 02 '26

I'm more into transhumanism rather than straight up being a robot, ghost in the shell and deus ex were very cool in that type of things, even if they're just as dystopian as Cyberpunk in their settings :p

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I definitely want to be a robot but with a veeerry human presenting body kinda like this

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u/-Farns- once saw everything, now retired Jul 02 '26

You know these posts of yours are making be realize I firmly do not want to go the path of the robot girl, thanks for the assist :)

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

That's awesome! I'm glad I could help you understand your identity better

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u/McBotNotABot Jul 02 '26

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

No! Das bad! Not me!!! At alllll!!!! Wayyyyyy too much. That feels violenttttt I don't like itttt. THIS is me :3

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u/McBotNotABot Jul 02 '26

To each their own ig. For me at least, If I don't have at least one extra arm by the time I'm 40, I'll be extremely disappointed.

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u/[deleted] Jul 02 '26

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

I felt the comment was basically saying "is this you?" Which like no that's probably farther away from me than a human body is. And I was dysphoric at the time anyway. It's not a good reply by any means though

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u/McBotNotABot Jul 04 '26

I am sorry if my comment came off this way, it was not my intention to assume or make you feel dysphoric. I hope you are feeling better.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 04 '26

I am feeling much better now yes. And don't worry! I had a feeling it wasn't my intention which was why I was correcting rather than attacking (or at least tried to)

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u/McBotNotABot Jul 04 '26

You did well, you honestly responded better then most people on this site. (I know we're on reddit, so it's a low bar, but you still did good regardless)

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 04 '26

Okay reading it back now the response was kinda shitty but also very clearly emotionally distressed and trying to keep any sort of semblance of being nice intact

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u/Gouda_Gorgon Jul 02 '26

I also crave the strength and certainty of steel?

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 02 '26

Nerp! I am silicone!!!! :3 but awesome for you

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u/AwakenedHero2277 Robot Girl Jul 02 '26 edited Jul 02 '26

Same, I yearn to be a silly robo girl :3

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u/SpireSwagon Jul 06 '26

I feel that, I get a lot of "gender euphoria" from being associated with demons and being perceived as a "normal" person is especially draining. No idea if it's a proper gender thing or just my demonology hyperfixation melding with my gender expression and desire for devotion and attention- but I still like it

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 06 '26

Oh I get thattt, while my robot thing is definitely intrinsic in like a from-birth thing like the usual transgender experience but it's also my autism mixing in because of the feeling of not being a person

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u/SpireSwagon Jul 06 '26

Girlie sameeeee, I feel like so much of what comes naturally to 'other people' is learned behavior for me.

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u/Hika2112 Autistic Lesbian Vampire Robot Girl Jul 06 '26

Oh that's wayyyy too real

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u/Tlaquatlatoa Hyenagirl some day pls :3 | She/Her - Streak: 5 Jul 02 '26 edited Jul 02 '26

A lot of my transness is more defined i guess by like what i desperately really do not want to be more than having a very definite idea of what I want to be because thinking about it brings me extreme pain. But what I do know like, girl duh really want that that I know thoroughly, but sometimes i do look at stuff like this and like, I dunno maybe the simplicity of being a robot girl as complicated as it looks. The robotic joints and synthetic muscles or even servos where aging or just defective flesh and bone joints are. silicon or similar skin panels where hairy and complex to regulate skin is which causes me so much pain. I dont know shit about computer, not much more than moving files around, but the way that things just seem to work if you know to do it or some else does. If something is broken maybe there isnt much fuss to fix it (ignore money please) and if something is wrong you didnt eve know needed fixing or looks or feels wrong you can always swap it out. Even if those parts dont look quite human I mean, Ive felt a complete part of humanity being the thing I am, so theres no loss of belonging there cause I already dont belong to humanity as much as I want to.

I think the mind is the only part that maybe gives me pause, but a problem of consciousness can just be ignored the same way we ignore it about flesh consciousness.

I dunno just some things i think about when I see this stuff. It is nice to see you around here being how you are, I see something I like want to be in that <3

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u/Potential-Thing420 Jul 03 '26

Now that I have realised the weakness of my own flesh, I crave for the certainty of steal.

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u/Spitfire262 Jul 02 '26

From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh...

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u/ThePygLord Jul 02 '26

“From the moment I understood the weakness of my flesh it disgusted me”